This Is Forever.

Someone else

"Why am I still here?"

It has been about 10 minutes sinse Clarke killed Cadogan and still nothing she is pacing and getting tired of just standing there

"You know why."

She's heard that voice before, that's her favorite voice she could never get tired of hearing it but not to get her hopes up she slowly turned around hoping it was who she wanted it to be and it was.

Lexa

"Lexa." Clarke didn't even realize her feet were moving until she was halfway to her when she got to her she jumped into her arms, but she knew that it wasn't really Lexa it couldn't be. With everything that she learned it was the judge, but she couldn't help herself it looked so much like Lexa and her voice she just couldn't help it.

"I'm not her Clarke."

"I know."

Clarke finally pulled back and looked into her favorite green eyes, god they where beautiful. Clarke could feel wetness drip down her cheek, she was crying she couldn't hold it in any longer but there was something different in Lexa it reminded her of when she first met Lexa then it hit her.

Coldness

Clarke hated it she had nocked those walls down before and it took her so long and now they where back up, obviously she knew it wasn't Lexa but still seeing her body and her face with the same cold expression on her turned stomach in the wrong way.

They talked and talked and talked for a while but Clarke couldn't seem to listen to a thing the judge said until she brought up Madi.

"This man was unarmed, no threat to you yet you killed him, why?" Lexa talked with no soul in her body making Clarkes heart crack.

"He killed my daughter." Two could play at this game.

"Is Madi dead?"

"No but she will be, because of him." Clarke couldn't do this, she couldn't stand here and act like she was fine with someone taking the form of her lover.

"So your need for revenge is more important then the fate of the entire human race." Clarke was about to loose it she couldn't hold it in anymore.

"Its not revenge...Its justice."

"Clarke, A rose by any other name is still blood must have blood."

You don't know my pain."

" Your wrong during the test I sense every part of you, I'm feeling your pain right now."

" Really, so you can feel how bad I want you to be Lexa how bad I want my child back, how bad I want to jump into your arms because you are her, HELL I CAN BARLEY LOOK AT YOU WITHOUT GETTING MY HEART CRUSHED."

"Clar-"

" NO YOU DONT FEEL MY PAIN, HOW DARE YOU COME DOWN HERE LOOKING LIKE HER TALKING WITH HER VOICE AND TRY TO TELL ME YOU KNOW MY PAIN." Clarke was sobbing now trying to get her self back together but she just couldn't she had to let it out.

" I don't care if you want to finish this test I know I've screwed this up for the human race but please be someone else don't make me watch as her body as to leave me again turn into someone else I've lost I cant stand to look at you and not see how she doesn't love me back."

Clarke is on her knees now begging the judge to change form into someone less hurtful to her, she couldn't watch Lexa leave her for a 4th time.

" You loved her, didn't you Clarke?" the judge asked with a little amount of sympathy

"Of course I did and here you are so please imagine my pain when I see you acting like her and its not really MY Lexa!"

" You have showed great strength during this test, and it wasn't until now that I suddenly realize how much you are truly broken, and for that I am truly sorry you are a human who really loved and so...."

"Yu gonplei ste nou odon."

And with that there was a bright light and Clarke was back, she clasped to her knees and started balling god she missed her she missed her a lot her Lexa her hodens.

"Clarke? Hey Clarke hey what's wrong." Raven rushed over to a sobbing Clarke holding her tightly as her friend cried into her chest.

"I cant do this without her, I miss her to much." Clarke said through little sobs.

"Who Clarke, you cant do this without who?" Raven was confused who was Clarke talking about.

"Lexa please come back, I cant I cant please come back."

"Clarke oh Clarke I'm so sorry."

Raven and Clarke stayed like that for a while until Clarke stopped crying and Raven finally realized she had fallen asleep from exhaustion, Luckly Levitt and Octavia found then and Levitt carried Clarke as she slept.

" Hey Levitt can you please take her back to Earth me and Octavia will be right behind you I just have to talk to her real quick." He nodded and walked away with Clarke.

"Hey what happened is Clarke okay when we got there she looked horrible?"

"Did you know they where a couple?" Raven said getting straight to the point.

"Who where a couple?" Now Octavia was really confused.

"Clarke and Lexa."

" What?!?"

"When Clarke got through back to our side she clasped and started sobbing, when I asked her what was wrong she she said Lexa please come back I can't do this without you."

" Well that Explain's why it was so hard to get Clarke to leave Polis when The Commander placed the blockade."

"Come on we should be there when she wakes up I don't know about you but after she left after Lexa's death I didn't see her grieve one bit she just busied herself with work, and now I kinda feel bad."

"I know Raven, but we should head after them she's gonna need us when she wakes up."

Authors note: THERE WILL BE A SECOND CHAPTER AND MAYBE EVEN A THIRD JUST WAIT AND THOSE CHAPTERS WILL BE LONGER I PROMISE.