EMBARRASSING.
I swear I never showed anyone that I'm crying. When my apology came out of my mouth, I wasn't able to hold my tears back.
I finally got to see her mom. She's gorgeous and no wonder why Jeonghan looks amazing. Her smile in that photo looks so calming and relieving. I wish to see that smile from Jeonghan, too.
I prepared many cds to play in this long ride since I thought I'll be going alone to Seoul. But since I decided to stay with Jeonghan, this ride feels so short.
We arrived at our house and Taehyung greeted us in the front door.
"Long time, Taehyung."
"It is, Jisoo- Joshua." Taehyung took our coats and hung it on the side.
"Sup, Taehyung?"
"I'm fine. Thank you for asking, Yoon Jeonghan."
He guided us to the room where dad's ashes are. We offered our prayers silently.
Hey, dad. It's your boy again. I'm with the person who saved me, the person who helped you not to put your sacrifice in vain. I know you risked your life to save me. And this person right here is also doing the same now. But this time, I will not let him die.
Also, dad, why do you have to keep this a secret? You're boss SS, the great mafia boss. Why did you hide too much secrets from me? Am I not worth it to know?
Ah, here we go again. I can't hold my tears back everytime I visit you, dad. That's why I always request to be alone.
I miss you so much, dad.
I felt hands on my back, one's Jeonghan and the other's Taehyung. I'm not alone anymore.
I stood up and we walked through the hallways to have an afternoon snack in the living room.
As we walked, Jeonghan said
"Your dad, I saw him when he was alive. At a diner."
"Diner? You mean at Daegu?"
"Yeah. The day when Nico went to your house."
"Oh. Our last lunch together."
"He looked so tough and noble. He's like a king."
"He is. He is a king."
We arrived and Taehyung served us pastries and tea.
"Taehyung, help youself."
"No, thank you."
"But we have to talk."
He then served himself a cake and tea and sat down in front of us. Good thing Jeonghan's with me, we can use his skill to tell me if he's lying or not. Back in the car, we made a code, if Jeonghan tapped me, it's a lie.
"I already know it. My dad is SS."
Taehyung crumpled the table cloth.
"I know you're already aware."
"Why do you have to keep it from me, Taehyung?"
"I also know that you've met Jihoon and Vernon."
"Jihoon?"
"Uhm, Woozi."
"Oh, yeah. Right."
"My situation is kinda similar with them. SS adopted Jihoon when he became his parents' payment for their gambling debt. Vernon and Seungkwan were rescued by boss SS from a crime syndicate. Mingy- I mean, I was adopted by boss from a human trafficking incident by another syndicate."
"Oh.. I'm sorry."
This is sad. I am waiting for Jeonghan to tell me he's lying, but he was telling the truth. I didn't know he went through this. I shouldn't have asked.
"Even our maids and butlers, they were from our mafia business. Those children who refused to take part in the business were made into house servants. We were glad to accept it."
"And what are you? Besides being our butler?"
"I was your father's counselor. I'm number 3."
I looked at Jeonghan and he confirmed it is the truth.
