SPACES | 𝘯. 𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘢𝘯 (book 3) ✔

Chapter 102: Cross Your Mind.

[Losing you is not an option]

      "You should've heard what he said, Yomara." I cried to her as he rubbed my back, allowing me to cry later that evening. She sighed sadly and let me cry. After I had locked myself in the bathroom, Niall tried to get me to come out, but gave up when I wouldn't give in and left. When he left, I begged Yomara to come over and calm me down since she's the only other person that can do it since the boys don't know and neither do the girls. 

      "Just relax, Emily. I'm sure he didn't mean it." She assured.

      I removed myself from her and looked at her. "But he-" 

      "It doesn't matter what he said. I know for a fact that he's happy about the baby. Even if he did say those things, he was just angry. That's all." 

      "He's happy about it?" 

      "Yes! I know it. How long has he been bugging you about future kids?" She asked, a smile appearing. 

      I shrugged, "A while." 

      "You see? He's glad about it and I know it." I nodded and sighed, placing a hand on my still flat tummy. 

      "I'm happy about it." 

      "Then that's all that matters, Emily. You two are going to make up soon and then you'll have the baby, and everything will turn out great in the end." I trusted Yomara's words, really hoping that she was right. "Okay?" 

      I nodded, "Okay."

      "You know what you need? You need ice cream. I know I do." She struggled to get up, but when she did, she waddled over to the refrigerator, taking out two pints of ice cream. In her last few months of her pregnancy, she's been eating a lot of sweets, claiming that Pea was the cause of it all. I only laughed it off and let her be, just as long as she wasn't eating too much. Yomara came back with the ice cream and a couple spoons, plopping back down on the couch. I turned on the TV and we began watching the movie that she's been trying to get me to watch. I grabbed a spoonful of the vanilla ice cream, putting it in my mouth as I watched the movie. 

      "Isn't that Lily Collins?" I asked, pointing to the TV with my spoon.

      She nodded, "Yeah, she's so pretty." She gushed. "I wish I was skinny." I rolled my eyes at her as her complaining about carrying a human began to come back. 

      "Shut up, it's only Pea. When Pea comes, you'll go back to your stick figure." I teased, earning an eye roll. 

      "Whatever." She said, making me laugh. I chuckled and sighed, continuing to watch the movie.

      I was still thinking about the fight with Niall from earlier. The way he yelled and clutched the papers was a scary sight because I'd never seen him so angry. But he had every right to be, so I accepted it. I hated the words that he spit out, I really did, but I couldn't control his anger. I don't have powers to control what he does and doesn't say. I just wanted to make up, and I wanted him to be by my side during this. I grabbed my phone and opened the conversation with Niall.

To Niall: Come over tomorrow. Please.

      I sighed and shook my head, deleting the message. I wanted to call and tell him that I was sorry, I really did, but I wanted to see if he would reach out first. I wanted him to.

      The next morning, I woke up with the usual nausea, but it wasn't as bad as before, thankfully. I grabbed my vitamins and took them, drinking water just as the door opened. I looked to the entrance and saw Niall, closing the door. He looked up and we kept a small eye contact. I saw the way his eyes weren't as bright and there were bags under his eyes, showing that he hadn't slept. "Oh, pet." He sighed. I felt tears brim my eyes as I went up to him, wrapping my arms around his neck. He wrapped his around my waist and hid his face in my neck.

      "I'm so sorry I didn't tell you. I'm so so sorry. I wanted to tell you the minute I found out. And the only reason Yomara knew was because she was there and I needed her support. And- God, I'm so sorry, Niall." I ranted as Niall watched me, keeping a hand on my cheek, wiping away the tears that fell slowly. 

      "It's okay, it's okay." He assured. 

      I shook my head, "It's not, Niall. I know that I had no right to not tell you and I really wanted to, but I was afraid. And you're right, I was stupid to not tell you.." I ranted again.

     Niall shook his head, his eyes watering. "Em, I never should've said those things. I understand why you didn't. But please, promise me that we won't fight like that anymore." I chuckled through my tears and shook my head. 

      "I promise." I hugged him again, happy to hold him again. "Are you still angry about it?" I asked, still hugging him tightly. 

      "About you not telling me? A little. But about the baby? Of course not." I sighed and buried my face in his neck, wishing to stay in that position forever. "I'm just worried about you, pet. What's going to happen? What did the doctor say?" He asked quickly. 

      "She said that the baby was a miracle." I sniffled with a smile. "That we were lucky. But there were going to be risks, so we had to be careful and keep watch of everything." I said. 

      He nodded, "We can do that. And educate me with everything you know, okay? I want to know just as much as you and I want to be at every appointment and everything." I laughed and held his face in my hands. 

      "I love you." I sniffled, "So much." 

      "I love you way more." He kissed me lovingly and held me in his arms for what felt like an eternity.

      "We're so cheesy." I laughed, wiping my eyes and nose. 

      He shrugs, "We're the good kind of cheesy."

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[Cross Your Mind - Niall Horan]

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A/N:

School is just starting again and I wanna throw myself out of a window already

#schoolsucks

don't listen to me, stay in school.

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All the love, C. xx

[Edit] HAKSFL I TOLD THE FUTURE!! I LITERALLY WROTE THIS AUTHOR'S NOTE LIKE TWO WEEKS AGO WHEN I WAS JUST STARTING WINTER BREAK AND NOW IT'S THE SECOND DAY BACK AT SCHOOL AND I REALLY WANNA THROW MYSELF OUT A WINDOW!!!