Pretending

chapter 4

Finally it was Monday . I had been led in bed wide awake for a while now . Just wondering what the day was gonna be like . Also I didn't get much sleep as usual .

That's when I heard a faint knocking on my door " hey ... um Ash do you think you'll be okay to go in today " Kenma shuffled into my room with a tired expression . I smiled in response . " We'll be leaving in half an hour " With that he left to go get ready .

I stood up a the side of my bed and looked across the room , to see a neat pile of clothes set out on the chair in my room . They looked almost identical to the clothes I saw Kenma wearing last week .

After sliding the clothes on I found my shoes then went down stairs . " Morning " Kenma's mum was gathering items of food out of the fridge when I walked into the kitchen . I plodded over to the table and sat down . Seconds later Kenma came running down , dressed in his uniform . " So what do you boys want for Breakfast " Kenma looked at his mum from the seat next to me at the table . " How about bacon sandwiches " Nodding as a reply , I looked to my cousin who just shrugged .

We were almost finished eating when Kenma's dad walked in the back door " it doesn't look very nice out there , think it might rain " I gulped nervously . Rain , if it rained I knew I wouldn't be able to keep myself together .

" You ready " Kenma snapped me out of my thoughts just in time . If he hadn't have done so I may have started crying . Following him slowly out the door , I took a deep breath .

We had been walking for almost ten minutes when I heard the hyper voice from the volleyball team . " Wow , don't you look smart in your uniform , your just like a little Kenma " At the end of his sentence Kuroo placed his hands on his cheeks and smiled . As hard as it was I tried my best to ignore him all the way just like my cousin was . But I was completely unable to .

Time skip : at Nekoma school gate

" So here we are , nekoma high school " I rolled my eyes enthusiastically as Kuroo held his arms in the air as he spoke . Kenma grabbed hold of his friends jacket sleve and pulled him of to the side . So I began looking around , admiring my surroundings . Until I noticed the sky looked a little grey .

The longer I stood looking at the grey clouds the more emotional I felt . Just as the two boys were walking over to me I felt a drop of water pad against my face . Then before I know it I'm crying what seems like a waterfall . Not being able to stop . My heart just couldn't deal with everything that had happened . So I ran of , not even knowing where to .

I ran for quite a while , just around the school . When I ended up in the gym . Where the team from yesterday was practicing . A confused look was shown on all the teams face a I stood in the door way trying to catch my breath as tears were streeming down my face .

" You're the new first year right " A character with an angry looking face and brown hair with with a patch of blonde in it , pointed at me and asked me . As I lifted my head up so I could see them clearer my phone then buzzed in my pocket . I knew it was probably Kenna trying to figure out where I was or if I'm okay . But I didn't care I was to busy dealing with the awkward situation I got myself into . That's when one of the boys with brown hair started slowly walking over . " Are you alright " I forced a painful smile , as a response . To which the the other guys expression softened and he continued to walk closer to me .

Next thing I know someone is laying their hands on my shoulders " found you " I sighed after hearing that voice . Some of the team started smiling and laughing at my reaction . Kuroo leaned forwards slightly while walking around me . When he was in front of me he leaned closer to me again and smiled .      

I thought it was weird that when we walked through the school gate no one was there , but now I know that we left early because the team had an early practice scheduled . Now I was sitting at the side of the room watching the practice . Even though Kuroo suggested that I give it a go I declined .

I was so busy daydreaming about whether the rain would stop , that I didn't notice a stray volleyball flying in my direction . "  watch out new kid ! Just as I looked up to question what was said, Kuroo dived in front of me to get the ball .

After the literal fall from grace Kuroo was lying on the floor in front of me , with one of his arms on the run away volleyball . A smirk crossed his face as he took in my concerned expression . " I'm okay , don't worry " Once he had finished speaking his tongue hung out the side of his mouth in a flirtatious way . My cheeks grew an uncomfortable warmth from what and how he spoke .

Just in time to save me from the awkward conversation with the rest of the team who were watching , the bell rang . Some of the team were laughing at Kuroo , while others seemed worried about me . Everyone in the gym stood still , statue-like , until I decided to grab my bag and walk up to Kenma . Then I confidently grabbed his sleeve and pulled him along behind me . He was too busy playing his psp so just went along with me without any hesitation . On my way out I noticed Kuroo send me a quick wave .

First lesson of the day after homeroom and it had to be the worst . Maths , what can i say it isn't my best subject . I'm not really sure what my best subject would be . But multiple teachers say I'm really good at english , so I assume it's that .

Time skip : after Maths

" Hey what's up , mini pudding " I shook my head in response and walked off away from the annoying figure . But my luck was probably none existent because guess what , it followed me . Kuroo , I don't know what game he's playing but it's really aggravating me . He doesn't know half the shit I've been through and I just want to be invisible . At my old school , before the accident I was the most talked about person , everyone pretty much knew everything about me . Whereas now I'd rather sink into the shadows and be invisible .

I don't know what Kuroo has been trying to do , maybe he wants to become my friend . But it seems to be really messing with my head . I've almost been thinking about him as much as what's happened the last few days . This just isn't me , what's going on with me .