After letting the weekend go by I finally decided on some things. I was now 13 weeks pregnant and I was more scared to get an abortion than I was to actually have my baby. I missed Jordan so much and it's been weeks since we talked. I couldn't believe he had actually cheated on me though. But after talking to Kash on Thursday I did a lot of thinking. Jas let me use her car and I pulled up to Jordan's house. He was home because his car was parked outside. I went to the back to knock on his window. He didn't answer the door right away which made my mind wonder.
I bit my bottom lip as we looked at each other. He was half dressed and just got done smoking. I didn't even know where to start. I wanted to yell at him and cry.
Hi.! I said shyly.
What's up, you okay.? He asked concerned.
I.....I.....(I took a deep breath and looked at him) I'm going to keep my baby Jordan and I don't wanna raise her alone.....I'm scared as fuck of everything. I'm always crying and I'm over emotional.....I miss you like hell but I also wanna beat the fuck out you so bad.! I miss my bestfriend.!
He pulled me into a hug and let me cry. He wrapped his arms around me tight. He kissed my forehead and it sounded like he had tears too and sniffles. "You don't have to raise it alone.!" I helped make it so ima be there for it. I was hopping you would keep it.!" He said in relief.
Why did you do it.? Was she prettier than me.? Was she better at sex than me.? Was her body better than mine.? Did she pay you more attention.? Did she hit more licks with you.? Like what was it that them bitches had I don't.!
Nothing Promise your perfect it was stupid casual conversations that led to other shit. I never fucked any of them bitches raw, I never hit no licks with them Shit was on some friendly smoke match it type shit and bitches got to suck in dick. Shit was never ment to go farther than what it was which was smoking. I fucked up and I'm sorry. He said wiping my tears. Honestly I believed him. He sounded so sencer about it......I really wanted to believe him.
I hear you.! Jordan I do.....I just don't know how to take you back after this. I loved you and I feel like we been through so much together....
That's cause we have..... I love you too and I ain't tryna walk away just yet.
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Incarcerated
Teen Fiction17 year old Promise was a broken hearted girl. Who been through a lot. She also had a baby girl who was depending on her. Being incarcerated made her grow up a lot. Facing the real world she had to figure everything out on her own.
