Incarcerated

Chapter 18

Heyy fresh meat.! Ashanti said coming over to my bunk.

What you want baby killer.?! Bianca said saying something before I could.

Ain't nobody talkin to yo dike ass.! She said snapping at her.

Bitch watch who you talkin to cause I'll have you washing her draws and mine.! Bianca said standing up.

Yooo B I got this.! I said standing up pushing her back some. I could tell these two did not like each other. For what I don't know. "What's up what can I help you with.?!" I asked standing in her face folding my arms. I had a temper. I was a hot head. I was known around town and in my hood for always fighting. That's another reason Jordan was so attracted to me. He knew I would pop on anybody any where at any time male or female and get shit poppin.

So you fuck with Kash.? She asked folding her arms.

You came all the way over here to ask me that bullshit.? Unless you want yo feelings hurt I advice you to keep it movin whenever you see me mama.

Bitch ain't nobody scared of you.! Is that his baby or not.?

Why.?!

Because she looks like a new born which means he had to be cheating on me with you.!

And if he was.? What the fuck was you gone do about it.?

Ight bitch if you wanna fight we can do that.! She said stepping close in my face puffing her chest up.

Nah I ain't fighting no bitch who already lost at life. Y'all son died because you wanted to play get back at a nigga so fuckin bad you left the house doors unlocked and y'all son got out and hit by a fuxkin car. BITCH YOU LOST AT LIFE ALREADY. So don't worry about what he do or what he got going on. Worry about all this time you gotta do.! I said getting closer to her that we was face to face our noses was touching.

Let's go in the bathroom cause my girl ain't getting sent to the shoe for yo ass.! B said pulling me back.

You better watch yo back bitch.!

Naw bitch watch yours and that's a promise.! I said blowing her a kiss.

Yoooo son! You just ran that bitch whole story down to ha I know she hella tight right now.! Bianca said laughing hard. I watched her walk away as she looked at me.

Yeah cause bitch you got the right game but the wrong bitch. Ask about me baby my name ring bells in the streets this ain't what you want. All the anger I got in me I'm Liable to kill a bitch and not think nothing about it.

Man that's deep bro.! Just know if some shit pop off in the next three months. I got yo back bro.! She said slapping me up.

Thanks B.! I sat back on my bed and continued to write in my journal. I was writing a letter to Novi. My baby. I was so happy I got a chance to see her the other day. I swear it brought my spirits up high. My councilor finally put Kash number on my calling list so I called him everyday to talk to him and Nova once he was out of school.

I swear my days was getting better in here now that I had somebody to talk to and vent to. I was also able to email ginger and Ray. They gave Kash money to put on his phone to go towards me calling them on three way calls. I was thankful he shared his time with them for me. Lord knows I needed all the help I could get. Ginger and Ray said that Jordan's funeral was so nice and so many people was there. And they had a surprise for me as well. Ginger couldn't hold water so she told me that his dad had him cremated and he had a heart shaped necklace for me and a teddy bear necklace for Novi with his ashes in it for us. Ginger took them to be engraved and it said "to my loves daddy is always with you" and she had his signature from the last thing he signed which was our lease, so she used that to have engraved on them as well. She also took a voicemail he left me when we was broken up of him saying how much he loved me and missed me and recorded it and put it into a teddy bear. When she sent me the video of it I broke down crying so hard. I watched the video like 20 times a day.

I was feeling like this shit was not getting easier at all.!