Sotus Short Stories- discontinued

Arthit - Busy Butterflies Pt 1

I hate expressing myself because every time I do. My whole body reacts. My skin has always been fairly light which is a freaking curse. I have to wear sunscreen or a shirt when I swim because if I don't I will be burned. Now that is not the worst problem i have. It's every god damn time Kongpob says anything to me now; I feel my blood pooling over my ears and cheeks. When he is extra cheesy it even goes down my neck. I won't say I hate his cheesiness because it makes me feel happy, but it's seriously going to kill me.

Since I expect him to be like this I am having trouble controlling my heart rate when I'm near him especially on campus. I thought it would be easy to keep our feeling private, but now I know I was wrong. We have been talking everyday either in person or over the phone, so we are really getting to know each other.

Today during lunch I almost outed myself, Toota was showing us ads for a new shampoo. It's a costly one, but he wanted opinions, I was going to say, "oh I know that brand. Kongpob uses it to wash his hair. It smells pretty good." This would be a good conversation between people who know about our relationship, but not two people who are supposed to be at odds with each other.

Thankfully, I didn't say it, but it doesn't mean my body didn't react to my embarrassment, so when Ai'Toota began asking me why I never voiced my opinion on the brand my face turned bright red. Which caused another question, "do you know the brand... just not saying... what type of secrets do you keep! Ai'Knott figure him out!" These types of embarrassing situations are happening frequently now.

Kongpob every morning delivers me breakfast and Nomyen. At first it was just things he enjoyed, but now he get things I have expressed I liked. He always remembers everything I say. One time we were out together and he recognized a shop, so he dragged me into it. It was cozy, homey cafe with sofas and chairs only side tables.

He told me to sit down and wait for him while he ordered. When he came back I was astonished by what he came back with. It was a Nomyen favoured Cheesecake. "I read about this place online, but I never thought we would actually come here together. This is supposed to be their best seller." He passes me the plate and the little fork. "I'll be back with our drinks!"

My stomach felt like there was thousands of butterflies fluttering away. When I brought the cake to my mouth, it was mouthwatering. It had all the favours of my favourite drink wrapped up in a delicious treat. When he returned he just smiled at me, "is it good? Your face is.. very animated..." he chuckled at the last part. "Don't care. I am super happy right now. What did you get me to drink?" I look up from my plate to look at him. "I got a iced coffee, instead of Nomyen as you are already consuming it." "I would still drink it." "I know... that is why I didn't plus isn't that sweet?"

Without thinking I use the fork to cut off a piece and guided it into his mouth. I only realized what I had done, when he was looking at me with such intensity. He opened his mouth and took my fork into it. The butterflies are back at it again. I coughed as I grabbed my drink. He began laughing, yet it was different to my ears this time. It sounded beautiful and it was directed at me, so it had such tenderness that I had only felt with my parents. This is when I knew I was falling in love.

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I have been finding it very difficult to approach Kongpob when he is with friends. It really shouldn't be this hard as I am a senior. I can ask him to help me with anything and no one would bat an eye. Now I have begun overthinking my actions, Kongpob has told me his friends only pay attention to video games, so they are too daft to actually catch on to us. I still feel they could.. my friends are riding my ass everyday. They are hell bent on figuring out my business. It would be easier to just tell them at this point. The ones who have the suspicions are Toota and Knott.

I spoke to Knott about my issues of a freshman liking me. My guess, is he has figured it out, but not saying anything until I tell him out right. Toota, I have no idea why he believes I have faen. Every chance he gets he asks. I have chased, whacked, denied him, but to no avail. He is definitely insistent on finding out. I catch myself sighing. I look around the classroom and to my delight there is Toota staring at me. He is mouthing words at me all I could make out was, "What.. Thinking... about." I mouth back, "Nothing!" He just shakes his head.

When class ends I planned to surprise Kongpob at his. I was going to be brave and move passed my irrational feelings. Heck, I was their head hazer... I should be able to pick up my... I never thought about this before. Are we boyfriends? We never defined it.

I'm on my way out the door pondering this thought when I felt a hand being placed on my shoulder. "Ai'Arthit, where do you think your going?" "Ai'Toota, I'm going to the bathroom. Why?" "Your pretty little lies are getting old don't you think?" "What the hell are you talking about?" "Hmmm, you definitely are stubborn... why can't you just tell me!!!" I have never seen Toota this desperate before. "Ai'Toota, I'm going to be honest with you okay. If I have something to tell you.. I will. Right now. I don't, okay?" He looked a little deflated, but he was quick to recover. "Fine. Suit yourself. Just remember don't live your life hiding." He walked away from me just like that.

Did he somehow figure out I was seeing Kongpob. He was concerned that I was ashamed of myself. I'm not in anyway ashamed of who I am or who I'm with. He makes me feel things that I have never experienced. I will proudly tell people we are together.. when the timing is right. I looked at my phone and see the time. Shia... I'm going to be late if I don't run.

When I arrived at the classroom. I am completely out of breath and soaking of sweat. Great one, Arthit! Showing up in front of Kongpob looking like shit. He walks out with his friends and sees me. His eyes glistened just like every other time he looks at me. He walks over to me, "swadee, P'Arthit! What brings you here?" Still little breathless, I studdered, "just wanted to see if you would accompany somewhere?" His smiles always take away my breath. "Of course, I'll do anything for you P'Arthit!" "Bleh" I turned and walk away. He waved goodbye to his friends and follows me out of the building.

"P'Arthit... P'Arthit Khrap!" "Mmm" "why are you running away?" "Oh, sorry. I'm still not comfortable around your friends, Kongpob" he laughs, "Phi, they aren't scary. If anything they are more scared of you. Every time you see them your face gets all serious!" "Kongpob, stop laughing... what do you expect. I was the head hazer.. I had to look tough" "you are tough.. tough enough to handle me!" He smiles and winks.

"I should not have come to see you..." "oh Phi! I'm only teasing!" "your teasing is going to cost ya!" "Are you going to punish me to run laps again?" "Nope" "yell I like men in front of the cafeteria?" "No, but strangely accurate." "Phi.. I only like you! Oh, maybe you should shout it?" "No way! You are a lot to handle you know!" "Yup! It's youngest child syndrome, Phi" "I'm an only child and I don't act like you!" "That's because you are a mature adult. I still have time to be childish!" "Two years..." "Oh.. suddenly the age gap is not relevant?" "You remembered that too!" "Yes! I will always remember any detail about you and you'll see in two years... I'll be a very mature adult..." "mmhmm" " I need to be as my sun will be a working man." " you are crazy!" "Crazy for you!" I walked away because if I stand there anymore my whole body will be red. Still I don't know how he can say things like that without being embarrassed.