Black And White //N.H

49.

15th of August 2019

After that day with Niall we started talking regularly again, but just in a friendly way. I don't know what happened to me those days, forgetting completely about the fact that we broke up a long time ago, and had sex with him, not once, but three or maybe four times, who keeps count, right?

"Yes, Lily, I know. I know how to take care of a baby, don't worry. Have a great time at your date," I tell her, holding her baby girl, Eva, in my arms. "Ok, ok. Thank you so much for doing this," she says, giving me a quick hug and says goodbye to her daughter. When she leaves I walk into the sitting room and place the kid down. I sit down beside her and end up handing her toys, while she throws them away giggling. "Ok, then. I guess you don't want to play?" I say and pick her up, placing her down on the couch. I put on some sort of kids show with a lot of colors and dancing, not really understanding what they were saying, but the constant giggling from Eva makes me realise that she gets what's going on on the screen. She looks up at me and points at the screen, saying some words I don't understand, so I just nod along, pretending I do.

After some time I realize it's dinnertime. Last time I was babysitting I had Niall to help me out, but now I have absolutely no idea how people do this. I can't leave her Eva alone, but if she just stays in the kitchen she would be fuzzy. "Ok, Eva. What to do. Maybe if we bring some toys you can be in the kitchen?" I say, picking her up along with a couple of cars, walking into the kitchen. When I put her down, my phone rings, and I see Niall's name on the caller ID. "Ok, I just gotta take this," I tell Eva, forgetting the fact that she's a baby, and she's already in her own world playing. "Hey, Niall. What's up?" I ask him when I pick up, not daring to look away from Eva. "Nothing much. I'm in London, wanna hang out?" he asks and I bite my lip. "I'm babysitting right now, what about tomorrow?" I ask him, and he sighs into the phone. "I have a busy day tomorrow, I think I won't be able to make it," he tells me and I frown. "But maybe I can come over now? Help you babysit?" he asks and I think about it, knowing I could use some help. "Yeah, sure, I'm at Lily's," I tell him and he says a quick ok.

When Niall arrives he comes in, giving me a small hug. "Is this Eva?" he asks when he sees the baby sitting in the highchair out in the kitchen. "Yeah, isn't she cute?" I say, sitting down on my spot. "Yeah, she's adorable," Niall tells me, looking down at the small kid. "If you're hungry there's food on the stove," I tell him, nodding over and he nods. "This is yummy," he tells me after taking a bite of the food, after sitting down over me. I look over at Eva, and she's rubbing her eyes. "You tired?" I ask, getting some babbling back. "I guess that's a yes," I mumble, getting up from my chair. "Is it ok if I just put her down real quick? She's out like a light anyways," I say to Niall, taking Eva up from the chair. "Yeah, go ahead," Niall says, still eating.

When I put her down and she falls asleep I walk back out to the kitchen, seeing Niall over by the sink doing the dishes. "You don't have to do those, I could do them myself," I tell him, and he shrugs, turning around to look at me, a pair of yellow rubber gloves covering his hands.

"I have some good news," he tells me when he's done and we're sitting on the couch. "Oh, what?" I ask him curiously. "I'm moving back here, or I already moved back here," he tells me, and my eyes widen. "No, you're joking right?" I say, taking his hand without thinking about it. "I'm completely serious," he tells me, a big grin on his face. "That's amazing, Niall!" I say, bringing him into a hug. When we pull away I look at him, biting my lip. "Does that mean that our break might be over?" I ask, hoping he won't be freaked out by it. This so-called break, that's more like a break up, has lasted for so long, and I don't know if his feelings for me are still as strong as mine for him. "It means whatever you want, Sweets. I can be your shoulder to cry on, your best friend, or your lover," he says and I smile. "Fuck, I love you," I blurt out, and he looks at me surprised. "I love you too," he says, placing his hand on the back of my neck and pulling me into a kiss. It wasn't like the kisses we shared in the hotel room. That one was filled with desperation and a need for each other. This one is full of passion, love and care, like we can't get enough of each other. Before things can go any further I pull away. "We have to stop now, there's a kid here," I say, a little out of breath. "Yeh, probably," he tells me.

"Do you have a guitar here?" Niall asks suddenly, looking around. "No, I have one in my apartment though," I tell him and he gets up, disappearing. "I have a song I want to play for you. I wrote it for flicker, while we were dating back then, but it didn't make it. I released it in february, but I don't think you've heard it," he explains when he comes back. "It's supposed to be on the piano, but this will work," he mumbles, mostly to himself, before starting playing.

So if we knew all along, Why did it take so long?

Now we've got to make up for all the wasted time

From the day that I met you I knew you'd be mine

You know you make me feel loved, Make me feel like I'm home

So if we knew all along, Why did it take so long?

He sings the whole song, and when he puts the guitar down I almost have tears in my eyes. "It's called So Long," he says quietly when I don't say anything. "I think it took so long because we knew. Like you said, I knew that you'd be mine. It wouldn't matter when. We knew that we would be together no matter how long it would take," I tell him and he nods a little. "Yeah, probably. But I want you to know that it's true. You make me feel loved, you did that when we weren't together anymore as well. I feel like I'm home when I'm with you, and I don't want to be apart anymore. I want to spend as much time with you as possible," he says and I smile. "I want that as well," I say and kiss him lightly, making me feel like we're back in 2017. "I was hoping you would say that, because I kinda, sorta want you to move in with me," he says, getting all shy and looking down at his hands. "I mean, why the hell not, Nigel," I say and he looks up. "First off, I love nicknames, but Nigel isn't sitting right with me, sweets," he begins, making me laugh by repeating the exact same sentence he did the first time I called him Nigel. "Second off, let's do it," I laugh, before leaning over to kiss him. "Emily Wilson, will you be my girlfriend and roomie," he asks, making me roll my eyes at him. "I would love to, Niall Horan. I would absolutely love to," I tell him, wrapping my arms around his neck. He presses his lips against mine, and I smile, making him giggle. I pull away surprised, as this is the first time I've ever heard him giggle. "Get over it, this sexy guy giggles," he says and I chuckle. Before I can say anything I hear the front door open, and soon after Lily appears in the doorway. I slide a little away from Niall and look up at her, expecting her to be sad, since she's home so early, but she's beaming, a big smile on her face. She gives Niall a confused look, before she shrugs and lays down on the couch.

"Best date ever, he was so sweet," she tells me and I smile. "That's good, Lily, tell me about him," I say, leaning forward a little. "Hold on, he?" Niall asks, looking from me to Lily. "Oh, yeah, he. I realized I don't really care if it's a he or she," Lily tells Niall. She figured this about a year ago, and I couldn't be more proud of how far she has come. "Ah, ok, now tell us," Niall says, resting his head on his hand and crossing his leg over the other, joining in as he was the third person in our girl group. With that giggle he let out earlier he might as well be. "Ok, so he's really sweet. Brown hair, blue eyes. I've met him before, actually. I didn't know before, but yeah," Lily says and I nod. "What's his name?" Niall asks curiously, but Lily just smirks. "I won't tell you guys that yet," Lily says and I roll my eyes at her secrecy. "Anyways, what is this?" Lily asks, pointing her finger between me and Niall. "We won't tell you that yet," I joke, before getting up from the couch. "But we're leaving now, if that's ok," I say, and Niall looks at me. "By all means, go ahead," Lily tells us with a laugh. "By the way, your daughter is a charmer," Niall tells Lily when we're at the door. "She'll be the end of me at some point, I swear. Can't bear to tell her no." Niall laughs at Lily's statement. "Well, I won't need to tell her no because I'm gonna be the fun uncle," Niall says, before kissing her cheek and we say bye.

AN// As you might have notived I can't go wothout Niall, so he had to appear pretty quick. But here you go, hope you enjoy it, now that they're back together, wiiii!