Don't tell me nonsense

Bigger people

I don't even know why I agreed to come today to this place, I don't think I was in the right frame of mind when I said to my mum that I'd go with her to see the sperms other family.

I'm here sitting in the car wishing I could go back home, but we were already on our way to North London. "Folake, cheer up now, it won't be that bad." My mum tried to lift my spirit. "Mum I really don't want to see that witch I once called auntie." I replied. "Be the bigger person, I know we are prideful people, but be the bigger person." I shook my head and looked towards my mum,"how do you do it?" For this I will always respect my mum, she is so civil with her friend that my dad cheated on her with and then married. She got disrespected so much by the both of them and she isn't a bitter cranberry.

"well Esther there is no point me holding anger and bitterness towards them because they have shown they don't care about me enough to consider my feelings, so I will not allow them to make me feel that way again." She paused, you could tell that this subject was very sensitive for her. "Plus I got you." She wanted to say more, but she kept it brief.

The car journey was silent from then on all I could hear were my thoughts. 'Plus I got you.' There was something about what my mother said that touched me. It was the sincerity that came across in just four words, the look in her eye of happiness and a sense of pride in what was hers. I even thought to what she said about he ex-friend and being the bigger person; my mums been through much more than I give her credit for. Perhaps, I was clouded in my assessment of my mother for on that moment I felt what I hadn't felt in years. Loved.