Don't tell me nonsense

Seeing you

Arriving in Newham was the easy bit, explaining wasn't as easy. I straightened myself up and wiped my tears away. Knocking at the door I just thought of everything that could go wrong.

Imagine she reacts just like mum, why will I go to them, but if she doesn't. My thoughts were stopped in their tracks when my older cousin opened the door.

"Esther is that you?" I smiled weakly at her awaiting her response. She embraced me and helped me take in my things.

"How are you?" I shrugged helplessly with a small smile.

"I mean, I'm still living." She laughed and I cried.

I dropped to the floor and cried. I hadn't cried in like two months and it all just flowed it was intrinsic to me. Crying was my second hobby along side sleeping.

Dami rushed to my side and began to console me, she asked no questions and that's what I loved so much about her. She was always so caring and non-judgemental.

"Who's that sitting on the floor making so much noise crying?" Need someone to mess up a sweet moment call Junior.

"Why do you always have to come fuck up the moment with your lopsided head coming like one stupid baboon." Dami stood up and kissed her teeth at Junior.

"Is you mad or nahh." He rolled his neck and clicked his tongue, he was such a joker. I smiled watching the both of them interact.

Why couldn't my family be like that?

The simple answer is because happiness is not relative, but distant.

"Little girl Esther, how you doing girl?" He pulled me off of the floor and into a hug.

"oh my gosh get off of me." I screamed and while twisting and turning.

Junior let go of me and bent down to my level,"It's me Esther, Junior remember." I nodded slow.

Dami looked at me peculiarly and so did Junior.

"What happened?" they spoke in unison

Storytime I guess.