"I-I don't have a choice...I have to kill you."
Jungkook dreads this but doesn't fight as I keep my gun aimed right at him. "If you must do this then I have one last thing to say.
I love you Minhee."
I pull the trigger.
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Slipping my gun out of grasp, I bring my hands up to cover my mouth in disbelief at my actions. I failed. I failed. I didn't kill him. I-I can't! Bending my back forward, my cries echo through the silent room. My shoulders shaking as my cries escalate heavily.
Never in the past few years have I hesitated to kill someone. But now...I have. I purposely shot the wall right at the last second. I missed. To a boy I met months ago...
But...only love is supposed to makes you hesitate. But I don't- I can't- NO I DON'T
"Why did I do that?" I whisper through my ugly sobs. Running my fingers through my hair I shake my head rapidly astonished at myself. Hearing footsteps approaching me, my heart starts to beat faster and I panic.
"Minhee" Jungkook quietly says as I see his knees bend down so he's at my level. But I shut my eyes and look down so he can't see my face. "What have you done to me?" I mumble feeling pathetic, weak...and something else bursting inside me.
Lifting my head up, I lock eyes with Jeon Jungkook. For a second, I observe the tears in his eyes yet the calm gorgeous face he has looking at me full of...love. That's what it was the whole time. Not just care. Love. "Why did you do this to me?" I ask as rare tears stream down my cheeks. I don't understand what's come over me.
Looking into Jungkook's dark orbs staring deep into my own, I see no sign of shock or disbelief. Instead he stares so attentively as if he could do it all day...making my insides suddenly go unexplainably crazier.
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Which confuses me a bit. "What is wrong with you?" I question through my tears, looking at the face of the man that should have been dead. "I knew you weren't going to kill me" Jungkook says calmly as his soft dark hair falls down to his forehead resting above his eyes. "Because I know you love me too."
"No I don't!!" I immediately refuse such an insane statement rising to my feet. I can't. I'm not allowed to. That's impossible. Even after what I've done, I still cannot bring myself to accept my feelings. Feelings that are erupting inside me but I've chained up, scared to set them free.
Jungkook looks up at my panicked state from the floor taken aback at my words. Yet he hides that confused face as he gets up on his feet in front of me. "You don't?" He questions looking at my tear stained face that doesn't look fierce, dangerous, strong or gorgeous anymore. It's weak. I feel weak...all because of Jungkook.
I pant heavily as my breathing goes unsteady since I'm unable to take my eyes off Jungkook. He observes how I hesitates. He knows I will never answer that. Though Jungkook secretly hopes I won't avoid the question or lie again. But what is he expecting? I wouldn't be the youngest female mafia leader who's been preparing for this in the harshest conditions if I hadn't adapted the rules of being a mafia permanently into my life. I know I'll will never be allowed to love. And so I shook my head repeatedly but my glistening eyes that are not the aggressive Minhee were all Jungkook needed to see the truth.
