Between Two Lies

Chapter 13

Question

Hindi ko pa rin alam ang aking sagot sa tanong n'ya kanina. Katatapos lang namin kumain ng dinner at s'ya ang naghuhugas ng plato.

Lumabas muna ako at pumunta sa may burol kung saan malapit ito sa dagat at kitang kita ang liwanag ng bituwin at buwan sa langit.

Malamig ang simoy ng hangin. Medyo malakas ang hampas ng alon. Pero hindi ito nakaapekto sa akin. Umupo ako ulit sa mga damuhan.

For some reason I was just staring at the night sky, enjoying the unexplainable universe.

Then suddenly he came. My silent and calm self began to over react. Why is this so?! He always give me this feeling. I couldn't imagine myself if this guy would be by my side forever!

He sat down beside me. "Have you ever wondered what life was all about?" He asked looking in to my eyes with so much intensity.

I looked at him with the same intensity and serious look. "Yes, I asked myself sometimes," I looked down and start pulling out some grass. "Why am I here? And then I came up with an answer." I looked at him once again. "Life is vast like universe we couldn't find any answers but universe has a long time to go and we have life that is too short," I saw confusion and eagerness to understand me in his eyes. "So instead of asking myself what life is all about, I chose to live my life full of positivity and creating every memories with my friends and family before God takes my life." I smiled finishing my statement.

I saw him grinned before looking down. I find it cute.

"How about you?" I asked him. "Have you ever wondered?" He met my eyes sending chills down to my body. He had this serious and so dark aura.

"Like you, I'm asking myself..." He said. I saw sadness and unexplainable emotion on him. "Life is not what we thought. Being alive doesn't mean you have life because..." He stilled for a second. He made me confused of what he said.

"Because?" I want to know the explanation about his statement.

"What about dreams? In your dreams your alive. What about others? Your characters in your dream? Are they alive?" And from there I saw the anger, frustrations, sadness, negativity and others that made me confused more.

"What are you saying?!" Nakakunot ang aking noo at bakas sa aking boses ang kaguluhan.

"Nothing. Never mind." Aniya pero hindi pa rin ako kumbinsido kaya tumango nalang ako.

Ilang sandali pa, tumikhim s'ya at nagsalita. "What would you rather choose..." Napatingin naman ako sa kan'ya. "Go back to the past or visit the future?" Kitang kita sa kan'yang mata ang kuryosidad.

Napaisip naman akong ng ilang sandali at sumagot. "I want to stay at present." I smiled because of my answer.

Nakunot naman ang kan'yang halatang naghihintay sa aking explanation.

"I want to stay where I am now because I want to create memories with my friends, I want to create the now and create my future without thinking that I'll change what  is planned for me." Huminto ako ng ilang sandali. Tumingin ako sa ibaba at nagbunot ng damo. Binalik ko ulit ang aking mga tingin sa kan'ya. "I don't want to go to the past because what I am now is because of the past. I don't want to change it for other reasons because you already said this, everything happens for a reason." Dagdag ko.

"Nice answer." Ngumiti ito sa akin kaya napangiti na rin ako. "But accept the truth that you want to go to the future or sneak a peek of a scene from your future, am I right?" May nang-aasar na ngiti sa kan'yang mukha.

Totoo rin ang sinabi n'ya. May point s'ya pero ayaw ko pa ring makita. Gusto ko ng surprise sa buhay ko.

"Yes I agree with you but I am sure of my answer and that's final." Sabi ko na nakatangin sa kan'yang mga mata.

"How about you?" Tanong ko sa kan'ya.

"Visit my future," He scoffed and grinned. What's wrong with his face?! Bakit parang alam n'ya na ang future n'ya pero gusto n'ya pa ring makita. "I want to see myself if I'm alive that time." Aniya na may malungkot na mukha. He's so emotional but he doesn't want me to feel it.

"Of course! You are still alive that time." I assured him with my words.

"We are not sure with that." He had pityful smile.

"Ba't ang nega mo?!" Nabwebwesit kong tanong ko sa kan'ya. Lahat ng tanong n'ya sinasagot n'ya ng negative!

"Idunno, maybe I was created full of negativity." Aniya. Medyo naguluhan ako sa sinabi n'ya.

Ba't parang iba ang pagkakaintindi ko sa sinabi n'ya?!

May kinuha naman s'ya sa likod n'ya. Dala-dala n'ya pala ang gitara na ginamit namin kanina.

Nagsimula na s'yang strum ng gitara. Wala akong idea kung ano ang kakantahin n'ya.

Maririnig ko na naman ang kan'yang boses na nagpapabilis ng aking puso. Nagpapalimot ng lahat ng iniisip ko. Nagpapahina sa aking katawan.

"The best thing 'bout tonight's that we're not fighting
Could it be that we have been this way before?" Kanta n'ya na may malapad na ngiti. Wala na ang kaninang mabigat na emosyon.

"I know you don't think that I am trying
I know you're wearing thin down to the core"

Napangisi naman ako ng marinig ko 'yun sa kan'ya. Napapailing ako habang nagbubunot ng damo.

"But hold your breath
Because tonight will be the night
That I will fall for you over again
Don't make me change my mind
Or I won't live to see another day
I swear it's true
Because a girl like you is impossible to find
You're impossible to find"

Kinagat n'ya ang kan'yang pang-ibabang labi at pinipigilan ang pag ngiti.

Sabay kaming napapailing na parang ewan. Nababaliw na ata kami, tumatawa ng hindi alam ang rason pero napaka komportable namin sa isa't-isa.

Being with someone without judging each other makes you both comfortable, at peace and calm. But why is it, my heart and mind have no peace because of him?

END OF CHAPTER 13

Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade