SONGBIRD

Have You Broken Up?

Rose's POV
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I walked away from Draco feeling nothing, literally I felt numb. No one talked to me like that. It way like part of my brain had completely shut down and I was left to feel hollow. I should be devastated right now, but I had no more tears left to shed, I am stronger than that. I'm also better than that.

I made my way to the great hall for lunch after completing skipping potions with Slughorn, I was scared what I'd do if I was around Draco so soon because my temper was running thin these days. I took a seat on the end of the vast Slytherin table as I watched other students pile into the great hall.

"Hey Rose" I heard the horribly familiar voice of Pansy Parkinson sneer from behind me
"What do you want" I spat as I watched her take a seat besides me.

I noticed Draco sit with Goyle on the opposite end of the table as Pansy gazed lovingly at him.

"Have you and Draco broke up?" She asked
"Why" I scoffed
"Just answer the question Nicholls!"
"Yes we have, I'm done with him so your welcome to him Parkison" I snapped.
Pansy's smile grew uncomfortably wide as she quite literally jumped off her seat and practically ran to sit besides Draco.

Ew

"You broke up?" I heard a voice sound out from behind me, I turned my head to see Harry, Hermione and Katherine stood behind me.
"Yes" I simply stated making Harry sit direct besides me, a bit to close for my liking.
"Want something else Harry" I asked
"Well was it true" He whispered
"You already know the answer Harry, just leave it be"
"Rose tell me" he pressed on
"Harry leave it!" I shouted making all eyes on the Slytherin table turn directly to me, including Draco.

Silence

"Rose are you okay?" Katherine cooed
"I'm fine"
"Are you sure you don't look fine" Hermione added
"Guys just leave me be for a bit okay?" I said
"We're your friends" Katherine said
"I know, so be good friends and respect my decision for now"
"But-" Harry began.

"Don't start Harry, I gave you my answer now fuck off" I spat making Harry's face go white as a sheet as if he was shocked at my tone in voice. They all were.
"We're hear when you need us" Hermione smiled as she tapped Harry on the shoulder and headed for the Griffindore table.

I heard the pig squeals of Pansy from where I was sat as she brushed Draco's hair like he was her bloody doll. I pushed myself off the table and headed for the door just wanting to be away from prying eyes. As I headed out I heard Pansys sniggers get louder and louder as if she was purposely trying to taunt me.

"Bye Rose" Pansy teased as she linked her arm with Draco's.
"Enjoy my used goods Parkinson" I winked, grabbing my wand and sending the jug of pumpkin juice to spill over both Pansy and Draco.
Panay screeched at the top of her voice as she stood up trying her best to burn me with her gaze.
"You'll regret that Blondie" Draco spat
"Game on Malfoy" I smirked as I made my exit out of the great hall.

My smirk grew more as I kept replaying the look on Draco's and Pansy's face, providing me which a feeling of pleasure. Priceless. I made my way through the empty corridors to the dungeons just wanting to curl up on the sofa and read a book for the afternoon. I would only admit this to myself but I needed a distraction and if that was pouring juice over Pansy or reading anything, I needed a distraction because I felt completely broken. A feeling I had always experienced waves of but this time it felt different, like I wasn't all there, like my mind had began to shut down. My mind was almost rewiring me, desperately wanting to me to distance myself from anyone close to me so I was completed isolated, wanting to it to just be me. I can't explain why I wanted this so much but it was as if it had turned into my new mission...

I rummaged through the selection of books from the shelf in the common room, trying to find the best thing to read. The common room was completely empty to my surprise as I read the blurbs of a range of books. I moved my head slightly to the left to see the figure of someone stood behind me in the corner of my eyes, wearing yellow. Suddenly, I felt the air in my lungs tighten, my throat completely drying up as my hands began to shake at the fear of who I thought it was, or what it was. I took in a deep breath as I slowly turned around to face the figure, my eyes closed shut out of fear. Mentally I prepared myself as my feet glued themselves to the floor and I opened my pooling eyes. My eyes were met with him, dressed in his uniform, pale skin, bloodshot eyes, dirt covering him. I jumped out of my skin once I opened my eyes stumbling back and crashing gassing the book shelf as my his eyes pierced into me, making me feel vulnerable.

"Cedric what do you want!" I shouted.

No answer.

"Go away" I tried once more.

But he stayed.

"What do you want from me!" I shouted louder.

No answer.

"Please please leave" I screamed as I closed my eyes once again only tighter this time as I desperately wished Cedric's lifeless body would be gone....

"Rose?" I heard a voice shout out to me, snapping me out of my fear as I opened my eyes to see that Cedric was gone...the entire book shelf crashed onto the floor surrounding me.
Blaise was stood before me as he cautiously made his way to face me.

Silence

Blaise looked at me not knowing what to say as he studied my tear filled eyes and how much my body was shaking.

"What happened?" He asked
"I knocked over the books" I stuttered
"What actually happened Rose".

What do I say? How I had been seeing my dead best friend ever since the boggart in defence against the dark arts. Or should I tell him that I have nightmares every night about Cedric and the same woman who just screams...I sounded crazy.

"I told you I knocked over the books Blaise"
"And that's all?"
"That's all, like I said"
"Well if your sure..."
"Yes".

"I was sorry to hear about you and Draco..."
"Don't be he's a git" I weakly smile as I ran up to my dorm room before anyone else could come into the common room and look at me the way Blaise had.

I crawled onto my bed, climbing underneath the covers as I took deep breaths in trying to calm myself down. I was going crazy I had to be...
My hands travelled to my neck as I played with the chain of my necklace pulling me back into reality as I realised I still had the bloody necklace Draco had given me on. Merlin I was such an idiot. I threw the stupid necklace along with the green blanket into a draw, never wanting to see either of them again, but for some reason I didn't have the heart to actually throw them away...

I felt hopeless, my parents didn't speak to me much anymore, I hadn't heard from Matt in a few months and he was off travelling anyways, Draco was a death eater and I'm pretty sure the rest of my friends were scared of me now. A month ago I was the happiest person and now I feel a soul crushing loneliness I would never wish on anyone. I was plagued with the same image of Cedric on repeat, I thought I had dealt with his death by now...yet he was still there at every single turn. But it wasn't the Cedric I knew which was the worst part it was something else entirely.