SONGBIRD

Not That I've Ever Thought About Him

Draco's POV
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I watched as Rose fell right back to the floor, her eyes shut as my mother made her unconscious after taking her memories away. I braced myself to meet the face the same fate, part of me didn't want to forget her but seeing the moment she had forgotten me only made my want to forget more. I haven't felt this kind of deep pain since I had found her, and I didn't think anything could have been worse than that but this somehow was. She was the only lifeline I had left, the one thing that stopped me jumping off the astronomy tower throughout the year, now what was I supposed to do. How was I supposed to protect her if I couldn't even remember her.

But to my utter surprise my mother lowered her wand and called for a house elf to take care of Rose.

"Aren't you going to-" I began
"Just go upstairs Draco I'll find you later"
"But what about"
"I will get a house elf to apparated her"
"Make sure they ta-take her to the burrow" I stuttered
"Very well, now go".

I felt hot tears crash to the floor as I watched the little house elf scurry into the hall to take Rose away. Take her away from me. My stomach churned, making me want to throw up as I replayed the look in her eyes as my mother took her away. We had only just found each other again. My Rose. I felt my knees buckled as I struggled to keep my self upright as I made my way up the never ending staircase and up to my bedroom. It had never felt so lonely before, so cold. I threw my shoes to the side carelessly looking around my room with a blank expression as I felt my body ache with longing.

But, suddenly a pit of anger formed in my stomach, burning my insides as I clenched my fist tight trying to calm the fuck down. It was no use. The anger took a hold of me and I punched the tall, grand full length mirror in the corner of my room. My fist cried out in pain as it made contact with the shards of glass that broke off and collapsed to the floor. Blood trickled down my hand rapidly as I dove into my flesh and forcefully pulled out a piece of glass, not caring about the pain it created. I stared back at my haunting reflection, tears streaming, anger burning, the dark mark in full view reminding me at what I just lost.

If I hadn't have gone to the burrow this wouldn't have happened, I was all alone now.

I crawled onto my unsympathetic bed, she sheets feeling unwelcoming considering only a little while ago I had Rose wrapped up in the sheets. I felt like half of me was missing, I hated feeling like this it was disgusting. I had spent so long concealing my feelings and trying to contain my emotions and now as I was here alone I regretted giving into Rose. It just hurt. Just as I felt my body give in with exhaustion my mother burst through the door without knocking, not saying a word she took a seat on the end of my bed. Rolling my eyes, I got up from underneath the covers to face my mother, he face filled with sorrow as she looked into my red raw eyes.

"I'm sorry son".

Silence

"Are you here to take my memories?" I asked
"No Draco".

Silence

"I don't want to take her away from you, Draco you've come so far"
"But you did take her from me" I spat
"She wasn't safe anymore"
"I would have kept her safe"
"That was out of your hands from the second she stepped into the manor today"
"Does father know"
"No, you can't let on you still have your memories"
"Why?"
"Do you want them taken from you".

Silence

"Do you Draco?".

Silence

"No, no I don't"
"She is safe but you have to keep your distance the second you don't I will take your memories of her and you will not be able to get them back, do you here me?"
"Yes mother".

"Draco, I felt something when I touched Rose earlier"
"Felt what?!"
"When I touched her I felt-I felt"
"Felt what mother!"
"Screaming".

Silence

"What does that mean" I asked
"She needs to be safe, which she will be"
"Mother?"
"Do you trust me Draco?"
"Yes"
"Very good, I can keep a safe eye on her to make sure she is safe".

My mother kissed my cheek gently and made her way out of my room, leaving me alone yet again. I looked down at the silver bracelet Rose had gifted me creating a harsh tugging on my heart. With a heavy heart I took the bracelet off my wrists, admiring it lovingly as I placed it into the draw on my beside table. I had to play my part to keep her safe, even if that meant taking off the only lifeline I had left to her.

But I could keep a watchful eye on her from a safe distance as well. How could I not.

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Rose's POV
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"Rose, Rose, Merlin Rose wake up!" I heard a distant, blur of a voice call out to me.

My eyes fluttered back open, a thumping headache taking over me as my eyes adjusted to the blinding light. I looked around confused as I noticed the familiar surroundings of the burrow. Katherine hovered over me, the rest of the Weasleys surrounding. I was laying on the lumpy sofa, a cold flannel gently pressed on my forehead. My body completely ached, flinching with pain as I moved my body slightly trying to come back to reality. Mrs Weasley put her warm arms around me as she helped me up to sit and face everyone.

"What the hell happened" I muttered holding onto my pounding head
"We found you on the sofa when we came downstairs, you were unconscious dear" Mrs Weasley explained
"Do you remember what happened" Katherine questioned with worry
"No...I-I don't at all" I stuttered as I desperately tired to remember anything.

"What's the last thing you remember?" Fred quizzed
"Erm...well I remember the wedding, I remember someone apparating me and then nothing"...

"We've been searching for you all night!" Katherine cried
"I've been gone all night?" I gasped
"Yes we were worried sick!" Katherine shouted
"I-I don't remember anything" I said, frustration only growing.

"Maybe a death eater grabbed you and took away your memories" Mr Weasley suggested
"Why though?" George said
"Why do they do anything, their all sick!" Katherine rolled her eyes
"I probably saw something you shouldn't have".

Silence

"Where's Mione?" I questioned
"They've gone" Mrs Weasley frowned
"Her, Ron and Harry" Fred said
"Oh...".

"They'll be fine though!" Mrs Weasley suddenly got up trying to channel the warmest smile possible.
"Come on Rose, you should rest" Katherine smiled
"Yeah okay" I frowned as I left the tension of the living room, climbing up the winding stairs of the burrow.

"You will stay with me!" Katherine beamed as she gestured to the two beds as we finally reached the top of the stairs, both extremely out of breath.
"What about George?"
"Your practically my sister and you've clearly been having a rough time" she laughed
"Clearly" I rolled my eyes.

The weirdest feeling overtook my body as I sat up on the bed, I felt like part of me was missing it was weird...like part of my heart just wasn't there. I couldn't shake it at all. Life had just seemed to be getting harder and harder, everyone felt it.

Memories rushed to the front of my mind suddenly. From McGonagall finding me on the bathroom floor, going with Matt to the Yule ball, being saved by Cedric from Crabbe, my parents gifting my the beautiful green necklace I wore. Random memories were surging through my mind...

Now summer was practically over and we would be returning to Hogwarts soon, a Hogwarts without Dumbledore, without Hermione, Ron and Harry. Rumours had been floating around about Draco Malfoy all year, not that I had ever spoken or thought about him I was utterly shocked after what Harry told me happened on the astronomy tower. It was difficult to think of a boy my age almost doing such a thing.

"You okay Rose?" Katherine smiled
"Yeah fine, just thinking...".