Lust and Wrath

Chapter 5

"Daniel!"

"Daniel, please wake up!"

My eyes slowly rised up, and I saw the feet of several people on the cold floor. "Oh my god, he's alive, he's alive, thank God."

That's my mum, no doubt, of course she'd be overreacting about situations. Speaking of situations, what happened? Why was I passed out?

I quickly regain control of my muscles, and press my hands toward the floor to push myself up, to where I'm sitting on the ground now. The left side of my face is cold and sticky, and the right side of my face feels hot and stingy. I saw my mum, and several men in suits standing in front of me. She ran towards me, and cupped my face, scanning it all over. "My baby.. What happened to you..?" she says calmly.

It all comes back to me now. I'm sitting in a bathroom, I don't know what time it is, but too much time didn't pass, hopefully. One of my classmates, Scott, he hit me on my cheek, and raped me in the bathroom, and left me here like a sack of trash. The abruptness of it all was too much for me, so I must have passed out due to exhaustion. My glasses are on the floor next to me from when he hit me, and I picked them up and put them on so I can get a better view of the situation.

My mum is in tears, looking at me with a horrified face. If any time would be the time, now would be the time to confess about what happened, so I can get Scott in trouble. But for some reason.. I don't want to tell on him.. I can't even believe what I'm saying, but it's true, I don't want to tell on him, I don't know why. I then decide to use the most cliché excuse in the universe,

"I was heading down here, but then I thought you were already waiting for me outside. So I stepped outside, and then I had to go to the bathroom. When I was inside, I slipped on something in the middle of the room, and I fell on the floor, so that's why I'm here.."

She continued to look at me straight in the eyes, and then she looked back at the concerned administrators, and then nodded. They nodded back, and then left the bathroom. She stood up from her kneeling position, and said, "Come on, let's go."

...

We just walked to her car, and she didn't say anything afterwards. I sat in the passengers seat beside her, while she pulled out of the driveway and onto the way home. It was mid-afternoon, which meant that I wasn't asleep for long, thankfully. She took one of her hands off the wheel, to brush her black hair backwards, put it back on it, and then sighed. "You're a young adult now, Daniel."

Oh boy, here it comes.

"I don't think you understand how much of an idiot you made me look back there," she continued. What? I made her look like an idiot? "You lied straight to my face, did you honestly expect me or anyone else to believe that petty little fib you made up?"

Damn. She saw straight through me. I had little hope in me that it would work, but I guess not. "I don't know what exactly happened today at school, but I'm going to hope that this will be the last day any kind of stuff like this happens."

"If you're going to tell me what truly happened, then tell me now," she's no longer looking at the road, but at me with a stern face. My face was blank for a minute, it was stupid for me to lie, why didn't I just tell on him. I should just tell her now, and perhaps we can solve these problems quietly, but still maybe at least get him kicked out.

But I don't want to.

I'm going to finally admit something. What he did today, was sexually attractive, even if it was rape. He took my virginity away, but the way he moaned out my name seemed not like him. When he moaned it out, he seemed, happy, and so did I. But when he was about to leave, his face, it wasn't his usual face. No, it was something different. I'm guessing he had regret what he had done, but I can't be sure.

I don't want to tell on him just because I have a slight, maybe, crush on him, but it's something else. Something in the back of my brain that I can't figure out.

"Well, okay then. I understand your situation, and I'm not going to press deeper into it, but I'm just going to say that you shouldn't get into matters you can't solve. I know the moving here is tough for you, but you have to tough it out, I know you can do it."

Right, the move. My stupid dad who left my mum, and forced us to leave France in shame. I will never forget what he did, that son of a bitch. "Don't try too hard at making friends, just be yourself, and eventually people will like you for who you are," she finally smiled, and looked back in front of hre. We were finally home, after a while of short talking and long silence. It was the early evening now, and I didn't have any homework to do, at least not now, so I'd be sitting in my house doing nothing.

I walked inside, and my mum said she'd be in her room working. I went upstairs to my room, and hopped on my bed, laying on it, phone in my hands. During class, Brianna and Nico gave me their phone numbers so we could talk and hang out, I suppose I might as well try now. As much as I want to just relax and forget about this whole situation, I can't.

I want to find out who exactly Scott is, why he raped me, and literally everything. Brianna and Nico wouldn't tell me crap about it. I thought I could maybe call one of them about it, but who would be willing to tell me? Brianna could probably give me some more information if we were just talking alone, so I decided to call her.

After 5 rings, she finally answered.

"Hey Daniel! What's up?" Oh nothing, I just got raped today, that's all.

"Everything's cool," I said, "Hey, can you tell me about him?" I tried to sound indistinct

"About who?" I noticed her emphasis on her curiousity.

"Scott."

"Oh.. Daniel, I thought I told you-"

I interrupted her, "I know, don't mess with him, but I just want to know more about him, please?" I didn't know how else I could ask her to tell me about him, so this was my only choice.

I heard her sigh, which meant that this was something she wasn't going to enjoy explaining, but as much as I hated to pull information out of her, I needed to know. Half of me is deciding to go out and tell the police right now, and the other half of me is telling me to keep quiet. I need to know about him, so I can figure things out.

"... Fine, here goes."