"Everything's gonna be okay kiddo. We love you."
"Right."
My mind was on overdrive. All I feel is an heart throbbing pain in my chest and all I heard is lies on repeat, over and over again inside my head, it is repetitive, and I couldn't fight it off, I couldn't even laugh them away.
The door to my room slammed opened and closed and I barely felt the cold of the doorknob on my palm. Aimlessly I just wandered to my bed, just wanting to block out the world, to hide away, to be numb for just a moment. Because that was the problem. I wasn't numb. I felt hurt, and I felt angry, and I felt betrayed because how else am I supposed to feel when Thomas doesn't believe in me and Patton is wrong and Deceit is right about so many wrong things? How else am I supposed to feel when I can't seem to get it right?
My eyes burned and there was a wet spot on my cheek, but I didn't wipe it away. Nobody's around to see anyway. A river of saltwater flowed along the planes of my face, probably carving grooves into the skin but who cared at this point.
"Knock knock." I buried my head further into my pillow and willed Patton to leave me alone for once.
"Roman? Kiddo? You in there?" I bunched my plush blankets over my head, feeling a bit like a child but what does it matter. "Bud, we did-do-do love you." Silence. "We love you, alright? Thomas loves you. You're important to us."
I wished I could shut my mind up against the words, the lies that were just there to make me feel better. The deceit. I was so tired of being played with and being tricked and being manipulated to do things he thought were right but weren't but now are and he's so confused and lost and-he doesn't even love me, he's made that obvious. Why else would he mess up saying, "We do love you." He said we did then changed it meaning...he hates me? But, what did I do? I did what he asked and yet it's still wrong, I'm told, don't trust him-so I don't, I'm told to trust him-so I do. But I always seem to be wrong! What do I do to make it right? I don't know anymore...
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prinxiety one shots
FanfictionFilled with prinxiety (roman and virgil) one shots but may have hints of all other ships to some extent and of course thomas. There will be no smut but there will be kissing also expect swearing, I won't write a warning for it. I take request so if...
