The Art of Moving On ♡ Yoongi ff

Jason

"Jason and I got together when we were twenty two, he died when we were twenty five soon to be twenty six. I depended on him in a lot of different ways. He had saved me from an abusive relationship that I was stuck in for years. He found me at work one day, I was covered in bruises and he obviously knew why. After that, he came in every single day and sought me out. It started with random conversations, to him finding me one day behind the store barely conscious" 

"Oh shit" I opened my fourth bottle and began drinking it down

"Yeah" she nibbled her bottom lip and opened another bottle

"I moved in with him that night as odd as that sounds, but I had nowhere to go, and being with a stranger felt a lot better than being home. He took care of me, nursed me back to health, and then helped me go to therapy so I could fix myself" she took a break to chug more soju down 

"It just..happened organically from there. We were in love, he had proposed a month before the accident so we were still trying to pick a date..and then..well" she shrugged as she wiped a tear from her eye 
 
"I knew we would be together forever" she smiled "you know what I'm talking about obviously, you were married. That feeling of invincibility, knowing that no matter what through thick and thin..you had your person" 

I nodded at her words "yeah, the feeling you only get once in a lifetime" 

"Exactly" she choked down a sob "I miss him. It hurts, but I'm living my life the way he wanted me to. Happy, healthy, and trying to thrive" 

"I want that too" I frowned as I opened another bottle "I promised Emily I would..and I haven't held up my end of the deal at all. I haven't even tried, I just kept going on about my day to day the same as I did while she was here. I took your advice on even drinking from a new mug"

"Oh yeah? How did that go?"
"I had to scrub the dust off of it first" 

We both laughed as she opened up another bottle, we wiped the tears from our faces and sat there drinking in silence for a minute. 

"Honestly, it gets easier" 
"It'll get better" 
"Neither one of us really believes this do we?"
"Not really" 

We both laughed again, she clanked her bottle with mine "at least we have each other now. Friends and family..they miss them too. But it isn't the same as sharing the pain of losing your soul mate" 

"Exactly" I nodded "I'm still your teacher though" 

"No problem professor" she saluted me, I chuckled and finished off another bottle before opening another one

"How did you propose?" She asked me as we were both on our sixth bottle

"I didn't" I shook my head and laughed "apparently I waited too long, so she took it into her own hands. I had a ring for her, I just wasn't sure when was a good time, she proposed to me in our bed after sex. She pulled the ring box from under her pillow, so I grabbed mine from the end table drawer" 

"Wow! And you guys were only nineteen?"

"Yup" I smiled wide "a year out of highschool, in two different universities, we made it work. We lived together in an apartment halfway between each school and we both had almost a two hour commute. But to us, it was worth it" 

"That's so sweet" she smiled, I looked over and realized she was shivering in her short sleeved shirt so I took my hoodie off and handed it to her "thanks" I nodded and continued drinking 

"How did Jason propose?" 

"Oh" she smiled "it was romantic" she took a sip of her soju "we went to dinner together, just the two of us at this overly fancy restaurant. I knew it was coming because we never went anywhere fancy, we couldn't afford it. So I kept looking through my food and drinks for the ring, but it never came. We went home and when we turned the lights on our friends and family jumped out at us holding up a banner that said 'will you marry me' and the whole apartment was decorated in hearts and roses. I turned to face him and he was on one knee holding up the prettiest ring I had ever seen" she offered me her hand and I took it

I stared down at the beautiful and simple rose gold ring with an infinity knot in the middle and riddled with diamonds
"That is beautiful" I smiled and let go of her hand, she stared down at it with a soft smile 

"My wedding band matches.. I've thought about wearing it..but what good is the ring without the vows and the man?" 

I nodded "I'm sorry Amelia" 
"It isn't your fault, but thank you" 

"So, is this our new thing now?" She asked as we finished our last bottles 

"What? Drinking together late at night on a bridge?" I smiled "nah, after I go back to work I'll stop drinking like this" 

"So no more hanging out?"

"We live three doors down from each other, just because we won't always be drinking, doesn't mean we can't still hang out and talk" 

"I'll hold you to it then" she smiled 
"I'm st-"
"Still my professor, I know" she giggled and I smiled "outside of school, the Notorious Min.Yoon.Gi, in school professor or mister Min" 

"Thank you" 

"Of course, you're my new misery buddy" 
"Misery buddy? Can't we think of a better name?" 
"Um.. I'll get back to you on that one" she giggled making me laugh 

"Okay" I nodded and stood up, I offered her my hand and helped her up on her feet, this time instead of going separate directions we walked together

"My house is first, but did you want me to walk you home?" I asked 
"Nah, I can handle the three houses in between" she smiled 
"Alright, good night then" I smiled and headed into my house, I put my keys down, kicked off my shoes, put the bottles in the recycling, and climbed up into my bed. It didn't take long for me to fall asleep cuddling her pillow. 

"I love you" 
"I love you too" 
"I'm sorry I can't help you" 
"What do you mean?" She asked as she cupped my cheek "you help me every day" 
"But.. I can't take it away" I cried "I just want to take it away. I want you to feel better" 
"Baby, when I'm with you, I always feel better. Don't cry okay?" 
"I'm sorry Emily, I'm so sorry" I sobbed as I laid my head in her lap 
"Baby, it isn't your fault" her tears landed in my hair "it just happens, everything will be okay" 
"It's not, it's not going to be okay. You're leaving me" 
"I know" she sniffled "but baby, I love you so much. I'm not leaving you because I want to" 
"I know" I sobbed "I know. I love you" 
"I love you too Yoongs, forever and always, until the day after forever. I love you"