Pregnant

Chapter 15

I am a mother.

On May 3rd at 6:34 am, I become a mother to a beautiful baby girl. I ended up being in labor for 24 hours, and I pushed for 15 minutes, and then my baby was ready to meet the world. I cannot believe I pushed out a baby. Now comes a hectic life with no sleep.

My parents had gone home after she was born, August and Gabby went home a few hours after my parents. That left me with Odell and our daughter. I looked over at Odell who was holding our child. I could tell from the look on his face he was in love as much as I was.

"Beautiful" Odell smiled down at the baby.

"I agree" I spoke up. He looked up at me and our eyes met. His eyes darkened and I knew that look. He used to always look at me when we're alone. Not a sexual look, but a look that told me how much he loved me. He got up and walked over to me, and handed me her.

"You are going to have to get a bigger place," Odell told me, watching me carefully.

"Yeah eventually. For now, I think I'll be fine. Gabby and August went to my place to make sure everything was ready for the baby to come home. They got everything taken care of" I informed him.

"I could have done that," he said. I looked up at him, he seemed upset at the fact that I didn't ask him to do it. Honestly though, he was right where I wanted him to be... by my side through this.

"Your right, but I wanted you here with me," I told him. He looked away from me, flustered.

"I am glad that you allowed me to be in here. It was such an amazing moment. Also getting to cut the cord was cool too" he beamed with happiness.

I smiled up at him, "I would not have had it any other way Odell. I'm glad you got to experience it".

***
On May the 6th we got discharged from the hospital. Being back in my own home was so much better than laying in that hospital bed. I was so bored at the hospital. They did have good food though.

We got back to my place and Odell carried the baby and all the bags in. I really appreciated that. We got inside my place and I immediately put the baby in her crib where she was sleeping. I did not want her to get used to being held all the time. I heard too many stories about letting the baby sleep with you. I did also hear that it could be rewarding to have them beside you as well. I may end up bringing her to my room, especially with all the middle of the night feedings.

I found Odell sitting on the couch in the living room, so I joined him.

"Do you need anything?" he asked me?

"Not at the moment, thank you for being with me at the hospital and just being here," I told him. He opened his arm and I snuggled up next to him.

"I'll always be here," he said. He continued to talk, but the next thing I knew I was knocked out.

***

I woke up and I was in my bedroom, I was in bed covered up. I got out the bed in panic and ran into my daughters room. She wasn't in her bed, I ran out into the living room and found Odell holding our baby girl. He looked up at me, confused.

"Are you okay" he asked?

I sighed, "Yeah, I just panicked. Sorry". He walked over to me and kissed me on my forehead. Then he hugged me, he offered my baby girl to me. I took her and sat down on the couch, she was fast asleep. Odell sat next to me.

"Where did you come up with her name" Odell wondered.

"Well I was searching for unique names, and I was reading a book and that's how I came up with the name Avalon" I explained.

"Avalon is such a beautiful name. I'm surprised you gave her my last name" he added.

I smiled, "I'm surprised you allowed it. I know most famous people have a whole DNA test and still won't let the child have their last name."

He smiled then. "Yeah well I know this is my child even though she looks like you. I'd love to give you my last name too" he added. I put Avalon in her bassinet and turned to Odell.

"Odell I love you, so much. I'm just protecting my heart. I don't want to get hurt again. I have to learn to trust you again and I have to see that the guy that cheated on me is gone and is replaced by someone who wants to be a family" I told him.

"I love you more. And I know, I just I can't help it. I'm working on myself though. By the end of this year we will be engaged" he answered. I couldn't hold myself back anymore, I straddled him (slowly, I was still in pain down there) and I kissed him. He hesitated at first, but then he pulled me closer to him deepening the kiss. Our kiss was aggressive yet held a lot of passion. We missed each other and our kiss showed exactly how much. At some point I ended up on the couch and he was on top of me. I didn't care what was going on I just kissed the man I loved with all the passion  I could give.

He pulled back first, braking the kiss, the connection, the passion. As soon as his lips left mine I felt lonely, and cold.

"I'm sorry, I know what you just said and-" he began to say.

I cut him off, " It's not your fault Odell I kissed you and I wanted too. I miss you, but this doesn't change anything".

After sitting in silence for a couple of minutes he spoke up. "How far would you have went"?

My cheeks got red, I could feel the heat come to them. "Well if I hadn't just had a baby, I would have went all the way. Honestly I'm glad you pulled back, I would have wanted more, but my body needs to heal".

He grinned from ear to ear, all his teeth were showing. I guess he liked my response. Which means that he wanted the same thing. I want to be with him, but he's hurt me twice now and I don't think I could handle another time. Especially not when all my focus is supposed to be going towards my newborn. I guess I'll just take one day at a time, and see where things go from there.

*****

The next morning Gabby came over and so did August. I was happy to see them. They were full of light and happiness. Odell ended up staying the night which I didn't have a problem with. He tried to sleep on the couch but I convinced him to sleep in the bed with me. I love to snuggle and I needed it last night. Of course when Gabby came over and saw that he was still here she gave me googling eyes. I rolled my eyes at her and we ended up laughing.

"Where is my niece at" August said.

"Taking a nap and she will not be woken up" I told him. He put his hands up and backed away from me. Whenever she sleeps, I will never wake her. We all sat in the living room and I had the baby monitor in my hand watching my baby girl.

"Dude you need to get out the house" August said. Apparently they boys were talking about something.

"Yes take him for a couple of hours please" I told August. We all laughed and the boys stood up.

August gave me a hug, "Well be back soon".

"Take care of each other" I told him. He knew what I meant and he nodded. Odell walked over to me and kissed me right on the lips. I see he was going to play hard ball. I kissed him back, pulling him a little closer towards me. I could feel both Gabby and August watching but I did not care. After our kiss, the boys left leaving me with Gabby who was just staring at me.

"Okay before you start assuming anything, all we've done is kiss" I informed her.

"Awe, I support you in whatever. I just want to make sure your not being pressured into getting back with him. By him or by social media".

I was confused, "Social media".

She nodded, "August told me not to say anything, but when do I ever listen to him." She explained while pulling up the last ear things that were being said. After she pulled it up I looked at the article, the head line wrote "Will a baby bring back Odell and Ashlyn?". Man people just can't keep their nose outta nothing.