Draco Malfoy imagines

Helpless

year : after the 2nd war

warning : self harm

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You and Draco have been together since your 4th year at Hogwarts . You had a typical life with him . Almost immediately after the war you found out you were pregnant , with a boy . Now your son Scorpius was 3 years old . Draco found a job within the ministry of magic and things were well for your little family . When you made public appearances with Draco , you seemed like the happiest family on earth . Yet that wasn't the case , your relationship grew toxic and there was nothing you could do about it .

Loving Draco was so consuming . Your entire life was so consuming , it was killing you . You laid in the bed you shared with Draco and stared at the ceiling . His back was turned to you and Scorpius was sound asleep down the hall . You couldn't tell Draco how you felt , he would dismiss your feelings . You slowly and quietly got up from the bed and went to the bathroom , shutting the door quietly . You turn on the shower and get undressed and sit underneath the hot water .

Your vision was blurred from tears that have started to pour down your face . You look down at your already scarred wrists and swallow hard . You pick up the blade you took from Draco's razor and glide it smoothly across your wrists and watch as the blood flows onto the shower flow and down the drain . You close your eyes , giving into the relief you felt . You make 2 more cuts and then those 2 turn into 4 more cuts . You continue to watch the pool of blood flow down the drain , as the sun rises . You sit there and watch yourself bleed until the water turns cold and feels like needles piercing through your skin .

You get up from the shower floor and feel weak in your legs . You turn the water off and get out , wrapping a towel around you and you put a bandage around your wrists . You sigh as you open the door and see Draco sitting up in the bed . " Good morning darling . " He says , and forces a small smile at you . You dismiss him , and dry yourself off with the towel . " As soon as you get dressed , go get Scorpius ready . We have business to tend to at the manor . " Draco says coldly as he gets up and gets dressed into a black suit and sprays cologne . The smell fills the room and you smile to yourself .

You get dressed into a black pant suit with sleeves so that your bandages are covered . You put on the necklace that your wedding hangs on and put on a pair of heels . Draco comes up behind you and wraps his arms around your waist . His breath smelled of fire whiskey and you push him off of you . " Draco it's 9 in the morning . I don't want to have to explain to my son why daddy is acting stupid this early . " You say and leave the room and go down the hall and get Scorpius . You hear as things crash in your bedroom and ignore it . " Good morning baby . " You say with a smile as you pick Scorpius up from his crib .

" Morning mommy . " He says sweetly and kisses your cheek . You smile and go to his closet and pick out a set of clothes for him and get him dressed . " There you go sweet boy , now let's go see if daddy is ready to go . " He smiles and holds your hand as you walk back down the hall to your bedroom . You push the door open and see things from the dresser all scattered on the floor and Draco sitting down on a chair in the corner with a bottle of fire whiskey in his hand . " uhm , Scorpius go down stairs and see if there's any breakfast . Mommy and daddy will be there in a moment . " You bend down and kiss his head and he runs down the stairs and you shut the door behind you .

" Draco .. don't do this to us . Can we please get through the day without an argument ? or at least without you being completely drunk ? " You ask in a soft tone as you walk over to him . He takes another drink from the bottle and looks at you . " No we can't . It doesn't matter if I stop drinking here , i'll just drink more at the manor . " He slurs his words and you roll your eyes . You take the bottle from his hand and pull him up from the chair . You take him into the hall , and you look over the railing of the stairs and see Scorpius at the bottom playing . " You see that boy Draco ?? He loves you so much and you barely know him . you would rather spend your days drinking then know your son . " You whisper into Draco's ear and his face goes soft .