Do you? || Book 1

~8~

(PLAY THE SONGGG)

3rd Person POV=

It was the class before lunch, throughout the whole morning people put their foot in front of Jisung's way in an attempt to make him trip, shoved him when he made his way to class, spat curse words and degrading words at him. Gossiped and snickered behind his back, stuck death threats and notes inside his locker, made him late to his classes, and received several detentions just for being late. Apart from that, no one was there to hug him and kiss his forehead to tell him that it was all going to be okay, that they were going to help him through this, that they will deny the rumors. He didn't even see his friends nearby and that made him think 'They heard the rumors... I was right... even they left me... im disgusting' And that was enough to break him apart.

He tore a page from his rough journal and wrote:

Seungmin, Felix and Jeongin, 

I don't even know why I'm writing this letter when I know you won't read it anyways. 
Now that you've learned the truth, I don't want to see the only people I love and trust turn their backs on me.
You were there for me ever since I came to this horrible school, All these years would have been shitty if not for Jeongin's adorable acts and him repeatedly smacking you guys, Felix's shitty sarcasm and humor, and Seungmin's adoration and tolerance for all of us.
The night at the party, exactly after Seungmo left to find you guys, they dragged me into Chan's studio and raped me, It's true...
They used me and left me there. I am disgusting, used, and broken, I understand if you hate me and don't want to be with me anymore but my heart cannot handle this pain, I just want it to end.
 By the time you find this, I'm probably already gone.
 I thought he cared for me, But as always I was wrong in the end.
I'm sorry, I have just been a huge burden on you, forget about me like I was never there.
You guys are better off without me...

Seungmo, Innie, Lixie...I Love you more than anything else in this world.

In the end, Jisung had tears in his eyes and they fell repeatedly. As soon as the bell rang, Jisung managed to reach his locker and put the note inside it, knowing they would open it. He made his way outside the school, towards the swimming pool where the swimmers, were just getting out to dry themselves and get something to eat. Just before coming here, he had made his way to the school's gym closet where there was a rope and put it inside his bag. As soon as there was no one around he wrapped the rope around his wrists, his hands on his front side, indeed it was a difficult task but he managed.

He stood on the edge of the deep side and without a second thought jumped. He held his breath for as long as he could, hating the feeling of being terrified, as soon as he realized he couldn't hold his breath in any longer, he started thrashing in the water. Body fighting for every last bit of air, failed attempts of trying to push himself out of the water with his arms and hands, Air being sucked out from his body, Coldwater filled his lungs and blood pounded behind his eyes, and before he knew it, everything went black.

The last thing he saw was a blob of darkness entering the water and everything going black...

A/N= Double updates?? WOW, I'm proud of myself. How was the chapter? 😬😬😬

My bias is Bang Chan, who's yours?

I could go on telling you guys why he's my ult bias but unfortunately, the world would be ending by the time I finish.

I won't promise anything but I might... i "MIGHT" start updating daily since my winter holidays started and I write all my chapters at 1 - 2 am so yeh :D