A Powerful Outcast (Majorly Slow update: not on hold)

Chapter 16: I have an answer....

*Recap*

Blake got everyone  out of the room and then he came back and sat in the chair next to me. He took a hold of my arms and looked me int eh eyes and said, "Ash i have a quesiton." 

"What is it?" i asked. Was he going to ask me if i was ok with him leaving? What if he wanted to leave me? What if that's what he planned all the way? What if.....? Oh Ash stop it. You need to chill. Your talking to yourself now. Your gonna turn into a carzy maniac if you kep it up. Ok breathe in and out and in and out and in and out.

"Do you have cancer?" 

*Ash's POV still and chapter 16*

I didn't look up. Why? Because i didn't have the curage to. So i silent noded. I heard him breathe in really quick. HE did say a word just kept breathing.

"Why?!?!?" he screamed clearly pissed that i didn't tell him.

"How would a start a conversation with it? OH hey mate, did i mention i have cancer? Did i forget, oh i am so sorry? I think i forgot to that i have like 2 monthes left to live. I don't know, most people don't say that. Or hell most people don't even szay the word cancer much." i said scarcasticlly. He didn't say anything.

But i snuck a look at him and he was pissing mad. "I'm sorry. I shouldn't have answered." i apoigized. He didn't answer. He just walked silently to the door. He put his fist next to the door on the wall, and just stood there. After a minute he, 

BAM!!!!

Punched the wall. And just walked out. 

I moved and laid down as my thoughts came to be. None of them were what i wante them to be. They were all negivatives. All ugly thoughts i thought i lost when i thought the worst was over.

I mean how could i have told him? I knew he would do something, right? Just not leave. He just left me. Like everyone eles in my life. He was there then he jst left me. Why? What did i ever do? Why won't it stop hurting? 

And the thoughts jsut kept comming. Then someone knocke on the door. 

I just ignored it, not wanted to say anything. BEcause if anyone walked in then they would see that i've been crying. And i frankly don't want that. 

*Blake's pov*

When i got everyone out and came back to ash and sat in the chair next to her. I took her hand and held it. Then i looked up in her eyes. "Ash, i have a question." 

"What is it?" she asked as i could see her thoughts racing through her mind. I had to ask. IT's now or never.

"Do you have cancer?" Where did i get these ideas? Of course she did, i mean she's sick, she has like a million medications in her room. I knew deep down, but i didn't want to be true. I just staring at her then the anywhere but here. Then i saw it. Her slient nod. I took a sharpand deep breathe in.

"Why?!?!?!?!?" i wasn't pissed at her, but at how she didn't tell me about it.

"How would a start a conversation with it? OH hey mate, did i mention i have cancer? Did i forget, oh i am so sorry? I think i forgot to that i have like 2 monthes left to live. I don't know, most people don't say that. Or hell most people don't even szay the word cancer much." she said scarcasticlly.

I didn't say anything. I was filled with so many emotions,

                                                 Sad that this had to happen to my Ash.

                                                                     Pissed that she didn't tell me.

                                                                                    Tired at how fate kept wanting to keep up apart.

"I'm sorry, I shouldn't have said anything." she apoligized. 

But i didn't was a sorry. I wanted time. To cool off. To chill. To get things off my chest. To think about how my life would be like if  just died. 

But when the died part slipped in my mind. I snapped. 

I pulled my thoughts together, and walked to the door. But then i stopped. 

What if she never told me?

I punched the wall aiming at my thought. Then i threw the door open and ran out. I ran straight to my room. 

Thoughts kept running through my head.

What if she never told me?

What if she just didn't tell me?

What if she didn't trust me?

What if she never ever trusted me?

What if......................

STOP!

This has to stop. Now. Today. I will get through. Somehow. And i will make sure she'll be okay. Somehow. 

But then it hit me. Like a wall of dumbness. Her speech. 

 ..........would you start a conversation with it? Oh hey mate, did i mention i have cancedr? Did i forget? Oh i am so sorry. I think i forgot too, that i have like 2 months left to live, I don......

2 months to live...

2 months. 

months

two 

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Yes i know this isn't that long but i think i was better then my last one. Ummm...... i actually think this chapter was more decent. Thanks you for ayn of you who read any part of my stories. Today was the last day of finals, and i was really excited. I miss all of my friends already, weird right? Tomorrow idk if i cant update. Because i have to pack and do things for my trip. But i can i will try. 

ummm...... Oh yea almost forgot:

Ok the 1st commentor who guesses who the people who knocked on the door gets a deadication. and a reconmendation of something they want in a chappie or a chaactor.

but if its an idea i might not use it. coz i used to plan my chappie like summary and i just ended up not useing it. but i will try really hard i swear.

xoxo,Dream19