A Powerful Outcast (Majorly Slow update: not on hold)

Chapter 7: Pride Has Won Again

*Chapter 7*

I locked the door, and set the food on my desk. I took out my journal and wrote about my day:

Dear My Self in the Future, 

Today was crazy. Let's see. I went to a club yesterday. I almost got raped. My 'mate' saved me. Blake is amazing when i was in the hospital. He kissed my fore head. He was... sweet. Then Miss Linda told me she would paid for my meds. I accepted.

I cutted today. Blake rejected me. He didn't want me. When i read werewolf's books and everything i had the thought if we did have real soul mates, it probably would accepted me. But too bad it's real but mine didn't. But i'm not going to show weakness. I'm going to bared through it, alone.

Kay and lilly are like the best friends ever. My only friends maybe. I felt as if time is going to change everything.

Now Miss Linda knows about everything, my thing. The only thing i didn't tell her was that i have a little less than 1 year and a half left.

Kay caught me shaving, and thought i was going to cut with my razor. But i don't, i have a knife for that. It's been a while time since i've done it.

Mom and dad doesn't know about cutting, my thing, or anything yet. And I'm not letting them know. They can't and won't care even if they knew. It's never going to happen.

Now i'm eatting pizza, and drinking coke. The pizza boy asked for my number. I have witch classes tomorrow. I have a dragon, his name's midnight. He's amazing. I hope he doesn't find out that his 'master' dies in a while. I hope not.

But i'm excited. Maybe i can try to fit in. Like an average teenager. Not an outcast, or emo kid, but an average kid. I hope i can. I'll write again later.    xoxo, Ashley

Then i finished my pizza and fell asleep.

*Blake's Thoughts on this while situation*

I didn't know why i rejected Ash. She's beautiful, smart, and kind. She's amazing. I guess i rejected her because, i felt i needed time to be the one i am now, a dumb ass player. Sure i fucked almost half of the girls here already. But i had a heart. Now i just want to go and beg for her back. But Ash doesn't seem like the type that lets someone back in after they rejected her because they want to still be a player. I thought i would find a girl that was kinda like me. Like Britney and understand i was only a teenager and wasn't ready to be in a relationship yet. I fell in love with her at first sight. I don't know. It seemed like the pick up line was good at the moment. I felt bad after i rejected her. When i walked in and found Kay tell me just because i rejected her she cuts, it broke my heart. After it i felt pain at my wrist. I used a spell to spy on her. She was crying and cutting her wrist. I wanted to stop her, but then it felt wrong to just jump back in her life like that. After she, Kay and Lilly left the house i snuck into her room. She had a bag full of pills. She was on like a million different types of meds. WTH? I counldn't even read half of them.

But no matter what i will win her back. She will be in my arms sooner or later. I swear of it. Sometimes i take the long way around. But tomorrow first thing ill be at her door talking to her, about us.

*The next morning in Ash's POV*

I woke up, not exactly ready for the day. I took a shower and changed into my never shout never concert black t shirt (They are majorly amazing. Christopher Drew  is totally amazing. Just saying.), a pair of white jeans, and my super high tops converse. when i finished getting ready there was a knock on my door. I ran to it and opened it only to see Blake?

"Uh Hey. Can i like help you?" I asked.

"Yeah i was wondering if you could like, umm...." he trailed off.