Hers To Claim

Chapter 23: His To Read.

Chapter Twenty Three: His To Read

Chrisshianno's P.O.V

Mars,

I thought of so many words before I wrote this later. I wanted to tell you that I hate you and never want to see you again while hoping you’d run after me and beg me to be yours but all I’d end up doing is lie.

And I already lied.

I’m done with that. Since before I left I knew what I felt for you. I knew that I loved you maybe I was scared maybe I thought we wouldn’t last maybe I knew we’d break each other or maybe I wanted us to break.

When Orso disappeared well died that’s another thing I’ve got to start believing, he’s gone and I lost myself before I even knew who I was or am. I lost control of my emotions and I lost you. I tried so much to make it feel like nothing had changed but we were never to be the same.

It’s a cliché right there’s thousand people telling me they love me but I’ve never felt more alone and yah I lied out of anger. I was angry at myself. Before I left I was afraid to tell you how I truly felt because I was afraid I was too broken to love you and that my love would break us. I knew I’d be the one who broke us not you. This letters not for you it’s for me to learn how to face my feelings.

I’m sorry after you poured your heart out I left you. I tried to convince myself that going to the rouge lands would help me find closure I needed and I’m sorry for the betrayal and pain you felt when I was with Rohan my intentions were to hurt you.

I never meant to hurt you because you’ve always been my best friend and I Blair Montanelli love and accept you as my mate Chrisshiano Mars whether you accept me or not and move on with someone else I’m yours.

I’m not leaving Red Eclipse because of what happened last night but cause I have promises to fulfil and bruises to heal. I can’t stay because I need to find and figure out what going in on within my brain, what I want and answers to these questions. What happened to us, why did things go so wrong? Where did I fade away?

~ Little Miss

I found the letter when I was calling it a night as under my door step by the handwriting I already knew who it was. A million emotions were running through my head as I read it but I couldn’t process all of them as I sat on my bed and heard a knock on the door.

The last person I thought would walk in was Blair. “I meant it when I said you’re the one I’d always run back to”, she said by my door.

“I’m sorry. I need you. I want you. I love you. I’m sorry. I meant every word the world really fucked with us, didn’t it?” I said. “I don’t know where it all went wrong Blair, I just know that I seriously fucked up and don’t know if it will ever get better”, I said the most truthful thing I’d said in nearly six years.

“We were already fucked up people to begin with this could have gone so different I know we could have had an epic cliché love story that’s not us I want to learn to truly leave without you Mar that’s why this time I’m actually going to let you go I love you I know this isn’t how I planned to say it or how you planned to hear it but nothing ever goes planned in our lives and I mean it Mars I’ve always loved you goddess knows I love you too”, she said.

“Why are we always saying goodbye?” I mused out loud. “I hate saying goodbye”, Blair said. “I know”, I know I shrugged leaning onto the door frame as she fidgeted with her fingers in front of me. “Uhm Mars…” she started but I cut her off. “You don’t have to ask, I’ll wait for you”, I told her, meaning every word. “Can I kiss you”, she said catching me off guard. “Do you really have to ask”, I told her as pulled her into me and crushed my lips against her soft ones letting them move lovingly.

“I love you Blair”, I said as I pressed my forehead to hers once we pulled apart from the kiss. “I love you too Mars”, she said and with that she left, again.

The words of a promise hanging in the air. I’ll wait for you.

Blair’s P.O.V

Being with Noni and Banner was good for me. I didn’t even know they had a son. He’s gorgeous obviously but its freak how much he pulled both gene pulls. He’s names Odes. Noni’s story was in a league if its own but I have a feeling it’s not yet over. And turns out she’s Rohan’s former foster sister.

“Alright set sail for gustily”, Rohan said as we left the Gold Wolf pack. “There’s one more place I need to go”, I told him. With all that Banner and Noni went through I just knew I was making the worst decision to just leave my mate, again.

That’s how I wound up at his door and in his arms only to leave again.

“Ready”, Rohan asked once I got back into Maddie. “Ready” 

Author's Note

Welp, it's time to get the red and purple out of my hair so I loo like a good daughter. I'mma b gon for a little while but I'mma be back in the meantime check out my other books especially Stripped And Tainted.

🎄Happy Holidays🎆

Mmmbyees ~ Tisha💛