Hers To Claim

Chapter 38: Hers To Discover

Chapter Thirty Eight: Hers To Discover

My nightmares marred into peaceful dreams once both Rohan and Chrisshiano slept beside me. The storm that was raging outside had simmered down but nonetheless I was grateful for the two males beside me. I didn't want to imagine what would happen if they were not.

I shifted uncomfortably I my sleep, I was half conscious on the verge of waking up but I still wanted to push out reality for a couple more hours, that's until a voice that wasn't mine resonated in my head.

It sounded like a far off whisper yarning to be heard, badgering me to let it in.

"Lycan what the hell is that" I asked and the noise began to pester me more and more drawing me out of my dreams.

"It's mate", she answered but Chrisshiano was sleeping soundly beside me. As far as I could tell he was perfectly fine and more than comfortable. A smile ached at my lips at that thought. Mars and I were finally in a good place again.

"His thoughts", Lycan whispered almost like she was afraid and I understood why. Mates could hear each other's thoughts and feed into their dreams but that was only if one of them was disrespecting the bound in a vile way.

I fought the voice away not wanting to ruin everything but the more I pushed the more it pulled me in. like a sweet siren song drawing me to drown into the depths of sea. It wasn't like it would be an invasion of privacy whatever he was thinking I needed to know.

I just didn't want to.

I was afraid to know what Mars was keeping from me. A secret child, but I was his first and only except for Jenna the she bitch of course.

A whimper left my lips as my head started buzzing and aching.

"Blair we have to let him in", Lycan said working with the pull to draw me in, it was only my human half fighting against it now and I knew I would last long but something kept telling me not to let it go that easily.

"What if it hurts Lycan?"

"What if it's the worst pain he'd ever cause us", I whimpered, "What if it changes the way we look at him", the thought scared me more than most things would. I just got him back, I can't lose him again. "I can't Lycan, I can't"

The decision was out of my hands, I had lost the tag of war against my mid and it was now opened to him.

"Don't let Blair now", his voice etched into my mind screeching like train speeding off its tracks right before a trash, "Don't let Blair know who killed Orso"

"Enough", I screamed bolting of the bed and landing to the floor panting out breathes as my heart run a marathon against my ribs. Pound, pound, pounding to shatter them and be free.

It can't be true.

"Blair", Rohan and Mars where immediately by my sides holding my shoulders, "Blair what's wrong"

"Mars", was it true, why would he keep it from me knowing how important Orso still is to me, "What really happened to my brother", I asked.

So it is true.

All this time, I thought some random rogue killed Orso but it could be someone I knew. Someone I still know.

"Tell me who killed my brother", I growled leaping at him. I tackled mars to the ground and pinned him there. I felt a sharp straining at my eyes and I knew they were glowing bright red but I couldn't care.

He knew, all this time.

"I did", he rushed out and I lost it.

"Stop fucking lying to me". Growling in my alpha tone I focused my death stare on him. I knew it wasn't him, in no possible way could it be him. Who would he die trying to protect?

"Becky did", Mars gasped out of breath and I doubled back in shock, "I saw little Becky stabbed Orso through the chest and he didn't get up after that"

"You're lying", I knew he wasn't. He couldn't but still what he was saying made no sense. My little sister couldn't have killed our big brother.

"She-she was safe, in the bunker with my mum it couldn't have been her, she was only ten", I broke apart. He was the only witness and I'd never asked because I didn't want to know all the gory details.

But why, why, why? My head couldn't wrap itself around that part and I felt like I was going crazy. Maybe this is just some terrible nightmare that I just have to be shaken awake from.

I held my head in my hands to stop the world from spinning, "Wake up, wake up, WAKE UP!!!" I tried screaming but this was my reality. "You're awake true love, you're here with me", Rohan held me in my arms and I felt like I was just watching Orso get killed again.

I looked at Mars who was in the corner of the room with a defeated look on his face but there was also a slither of relief that he wouldn't have to bare this secret any longer.

"Becky wouldn't, she wouldn't", I shook my head in disbelief. He's eyes glossed over, reminding me that he believed what he saw but I couldn't.

"We found her in the woods after the attack, she was badly injured and didn't remember anything, I couldn't tell, you would believe me", Mars let out, "No one would"

"I can prove it, I can prove you wrong, I can prove it, I have to see Becky, she didn't do this, I can prove it, I can", I sounded like a rumbling mad woman but I could prove it, right or wrong. I really hope it was wrong.