Hers To Claim

Chapter 33: Hers To Battle

Chapter Thirty Three: Hers To Battle

I had to do this. I thought as I walked back to Mars’ room. Do what? I have no idea all I knew is that I’d figure it out once I see him. Rohan was nowhere to be seen as I left Averi’s house so figured he was just back at the pack house.

As I drove through the familiar paths of my home pack, I noticed something I hadn’t before. The streets were empty with barely two or three people. It was all eerily quiet and lacked the chitter chatter I’d non it to have when I was younger. Only one thing was clear.

This isn’t the pack I grew up in. It’s not the back where Jenna used to pick on me. It’s not the pack Averi, Bob and I ran around playing hide and seek in. It’s not the pack Mars and I became thick as thieves in. it’s not the pack I fought for and sure as hell is not the pack that Orso died for.
How did Mars let it get this bad, how could I?

I got to his office and push the door open but he wasn’t inside. “Alpha Ramirez where’s Mars”, I asked when I saw he was the one behind the desk handling some paper work. “He and Jenna went to the Alphas Gala, they should be back this evening latest tomorrow”

“Fucking perfect”, I grumbled beneath my breath. My eyes downcast as prepared to leave.

“You finally noticed the hollow streets”, Alpha Ramirez suddenly spoke and I let it overwhelm me. I walked inside and plopped into one of the chair, rubbing at my temples like they’d provided some miracle answer from the forces of the universe for all my troubles.

“What are we going to do?” I let out, without the numbers Red Eclipse will be defenseless and any rogue or power crazed alpha can just come and completely take control of it. We’d be gone for good.

“What are you going to do about it Blair”, he countered, like dude how the fuck should I know I asked first. “You’re his real Luna”, he said.

“Well you’re his real father”, I stated.

“I’m not the Alpha anymore, he doesn’t have to listen to me”, he said.

“Why the hell is he so stubborn”, I grunted with my hands now mushing my face in frustration. “Gets it from his mom, I’ll tell you that”, Alpha Ramirez chuckled sadly.

Maybe I should throw in the -you’re dead mum wouldn’t want this- card but no, I’d be an even shittier person if I do.

“He’ll listen to you Blair”, he said and I scoffed.

“When you left for the rogue lands he didn’t talk to me for two years, he only talked to me when he became Alpha because he blamed me for sending you away, you’re his weakness and strength, Luna Blair”, Alpha Ramirez told me as he started packing up the rest of the paper work into drawers before standing up and walking over to me and patting my on the shoulder.

“Open his eyes”

“They’ve been closed for seven years, how are we sure he’s not dead in there”, I revealed, what if he’s not opening them because he can’t. Because ours Mars, the one we know is gone, forever.

“Do you believe that”, Alpha Ramirez asked. “Nope”

After leaving the office I found my way to the kitchen had a snack and took a bath. I was back in Orso’s room. I didn’t plan on sleeping anywhere else.

I pulled on some jean blue short high waist shorts and a big maroon shirt that I ahem ‘borrowed’ from Rohan then went to find him hoping he’d given up on the silent treatment.

I didn’t know why he went through the trouble of unpacking into one of the downstairs gets rooms when we both know that at the end of the night we’ll be cuddling in the same corner.

I was about to knock on his door when it opened. Rohan appeared and for some reason my heart felt like a little spear poke through it. Why did I think he was leaving- leaving and why did it hurt that bad.

“Hey”, he said and I just through myself in his arms without second thought. Embracing him like he’d vanish into thin air any second now. I don’t know what I’d do if I lost him and I hated how much that scared me.

“Thank you”, I mumbled into his shirt but I didn’t say what for. Thank you for always being there for me, protecting me. Thanks for caring and looking after me when you don’t have too. Thank you for not getting fed up and leaving me. Thank you for being you.

It hit me that he doesn’t have to, he simply wants to and that someday he might just give up.

“I’ll always only want the best for you Bee, you know that”, Rohan whispered to me as he held me equally as tight as I held him. I don’t deserve him, I know that but I don’t know what else to do because I can’t bare letting him go either.

“Want to go watch a movie in my room?” I asked now simply letting him rest his hand on my shoulder as I cuddled into his side.

“Way ahead of you, the new kissing booth movie is out”, Rohan squealed excitedly and I laughed at how childish he could get sometimes.

You know, when he’s not ripping rogues apart or trying to tear Mars limb from limb.

We made a huge ball of popcorn, we both had to carry it with us upstairs. We decided to watch all three movies again and after that Rohan had the brilliant idea of us watching Kevin Hart movies because and quote,

“Kevin Hart gives him a hard on”, now I don’t know if he was joking or not.

Honestly I’m not one hundred percent sure he’s not bi. I wouldn’t mind if he was though. It would clear up a lot of questions. Somewhere through the last half of Get Hard I must have dosed off.

I woke up and it was pitch black outside and I was in my wolf form with Rohan’s wolf cuddling beside mine. The same agonizing heat from earlier resurfaced, racking through my body only this time a hell lot worse.

I tried pacing the room, I don’t even know why I thought that that would get it to stop. I must have woken up Rohan because next thing I knew Beast was at my side, nudging me with his body to keep me from falling and breaking something.

He led me back to the corner where we’d created a little den and slowly helped me lay down. I shifted back to human form and he rushed to the closet. He came back dressed in a shirt and shorts and helped me pull on an oversized black tee.

“It hurts”, I wheezed out as Rohan carried me off the floor and onto the bed. “I’m here love, I’m right here”, Rohan reassured but it wasn’t enough. It felt like someone was slowly peeling the skin off my flesh and setting my bones on fire.

“Mars”, I whispered painfully. He’s cheating on me. “I’m really going to kill him this time”, Rohan spat. Not if I kill him first. I get he wants to hurt me because he’s hurting but his forms of punishment are cruel and inhumane, Lycan can die from the pain of a disloyal mate.

The only thing that believe it or not is helping us right now is our blood bond with Rohan. It could be ten times worse. I’d never do this too him, I thought just as another wave of agonizing pain wrenched through me. Rohan hissed, his grip on me tightening and I realized.

The bond, it’s hurting him too.

I officially felt like the shittiest person on the planet. “It’s not your fault love”, Rohan promised placing a tender kiss on my forehead but it is, it’s all my fault. It’s my fault he has to endure part to the pain meant or me when he’s done nothing wrong to deserve it.

“I can mark you”, he rushed out as the pain got stronger, “I can permanently mark you as mine and this will all be over. No more pain”, Rohan promised but I knew he’d never do it without my consent.

Was I really ready to choose?