Hers To Claim

Chapter 41: Hers To Mark

Chapter Forty One: Hers To Mark

Wake up u idiot", I sit he's been like this for months. However said you can't fall out of love with your soul mate was a liar.

Each day, mars kept ignoring my pleas to come back to consciousness, I kept chipping away every part of my soul that loved him.

How could he be so selfish after all we've been through?

We were finally in a good place and just like that he decided to go take the eternal nap. Well screw him and screw him again. You know what triple screw him. I hate this son of a beautiful she wolf.

"Blair?" Rohan called from the door.

I don't honestly know why he's still here. I've been ignoring him like crazy. Switching between watching over Mars and handling the pack business.

Apart from constantly asking me about how Mars is doing, the pack was good. We'd got a whole lot of new and old members re-joining.

Rohan was a great help which in some way only made me feel worse. He's too good for me and I've wrecked my brain over and over looking for reasons why he still loves and cares for me, I've come back with nothing.

He's too good for me.

I deserve little pieces of shit like Mars, that's all I'm good for.

"Blair?" he calls again and I ignore him. Again.

I don't even look at him and just stay rooted in place staring at Mar's overgrown beard and our interlocked hands. Please take the hint and disappear.

Finally, I hear him sigh, "I'll bring you dinner", he says and walks away.

That's when a single betraying tear streams down my face, I quickly whip it away.

Stupid, stupid Blair.

"This, this is all your fault", I tell Mars. I know I look crazy yelling at a comatose person but fuck I'm tired.

I'm tired.

I just want to be happy.

"You want to sleep for the rest of our lives", I screech anger bubbling up in me, "Fine, see if I care, just don't be an asshole when you wake up and I've chosen someone else"

I get up hurriedly and leave the room and Mars behind.

I barely make it out the front door before shifting, my clothes falling in tarts on the follow as I race into the woods. It's dark outside but the full moons glowing extremely bright.

On any other day I would have loved it. Not today. Not after what I'm going to do.

"Don't make this decision in anger Bee" Lycan comments and I feel like screaming at her. She was no right to tell me what I can and can't do.

"Oh now you talk to me, selfish all of you, you're all just selfish", I reply. She's been quiet on me for all these months and now she thinks because she meekly whispers sense to me, all is forgiven.

She and a freaking mate can burn in wolf hell.

Within minutes I'm already at the gathering grounds. I climb onto the ancient tree stop and howl my heart out.

All it takes is just a few seconds before wolves start piling in from every direction.

"Blair please don't", Lycan cautions.

"Shut the fuck up", I yell back at her, shocking myself as well. I would have never done or thought about doing that before. Maybe it's true what the old folk say about a she wolf losing her mate.