~Here we are, two strangers that have known each other for a lifetime ~
Chapter Sixteen: Hers To Demand.
“I want to be Luna”, I say as I storm into Chrisshiano’s office. He was behind the desk with his reading glasses looking fine as hell and it looked like he was finally starting to get some work done.
He looked up at me through the thick rims, “What?” he asked placing the papers on his desk then crossing his arms. “We already have a Luna”, he said as if he was already bored of the conversation before it began.
“It’s my right to be Luna not hers”, I say. “We rejected each other first day you got back. Get that through your thick head, Blair, you have no right over me”, Chrisshiano yelled out in frustration. “Well boo-fucking-who I can still be Luna with or without you as my mate. Keep fucking Jenna The she-bitch for all I care but you’re dragging MY pack down and I won’t let that happen”, I say to him.
“You can be Beta after you’re father but Jenna stays as Luna”, he ssaid.
“That’s just the freaking problem Mars, I certainly ain’t becoming Beta and the pack has have no Alpha Heir. Do you even realise how dangerous that could be?” I said. “Averi just had to tell you, didn’t she?” he said.
“We all used to be best friends remember that”, I said. “Remember, You won’t let me forget”, he said as his jaw clenched and he glared daggers at me. Pfft, what am I supposed to be scared?
I mimicked him with new found confidence, crossed my arms over my chest and said, “You can keep poking your dick in Jenna the she-bitch’s glory hole for all I care. Alpha or not remember, I always get what I want, Tiny Sir”.
I must have struck a nerve since he got off the table and walked to me like a charging bull. I tried not to get too distracted by his sudden closeness. The fact that we rejected each other makes the mate bond worse. It’s like goddess herself is trying to bring you back together.
“What did you just say”, Chrisshiano asked. I had no idea. “I’m going to become Luna or…” my words were instantly stopped by Chrisshiano’s rough hand on my neck pinning me to the nearest wall. “Or what Blair you’ll have MY pack shun me again. I think you forget, I’m the Alpha here and you’re just a power hungry bitch”, he said.
It’s funny who I’ve gotten so used to his slurs and hateful laced tone to the point it just doesn’t affect me anymore. He numbed all the feelings I had for him and it’s honestly okay. “You know that’s not who I am”, I say.
He knows me better than anyone and I’ve never been power hungry. I just do what’s supposed to be done. He taught me to be who I am. He encouraged me to be strong.
Looking at Chrisshiano know, I don’t recognise who he’s become. He’s no longer my Mars. The scary part is, he looks at me in the exact same way. Like I’m not his Blair.
Here we are, standing in a room where we’d always play and antagonize our parents and friends, staring at ourselves, two strangers that have known each other for a lifetime. What changed?
“I don’ know you Blair, not anymore and I’m honestly starting to think I never have”, Chrisshiano said his gaze slowly softening and his grip on my neck fading as he placed his hand on the wall like his other, leaving both at each side of my head. Caging me in between him.
“Right now Blair you’re…honestly it feels like you’re…” his eyes met mine and I understood exactly what he was trying to say. “I’m nothing to you”, I said in a soft whisper meant more for me as tried to look anywhere but him. “I can’t say that”, he said and I scoffed. “Oh really, well it’s what you’ve been showing”, I say.
“I’m not sorry for that but Blair…” “But Blair, What? Chrisshiano stop playing with me what the hell do you want”
“I Want You!!!”
I love you. I need you. I want you. Those three word sentences make my heart flutter. He’s said them all, he means every word but he always acts different. He has all the words that I want but I guess my heart’s just tired of all his actions.
I mastered the courage to push him away. The boy who taught me to be strong when a person hurts me. The boy who wiped my tears away after my first break up. The man who makes me want to feel numb.
“Find me when your done having your little bipolar period otherwise I’m leaving the pack if I’m not Luna. I won’t just watch on the side lines while you ruin it because of ego Mars. You need help and I want to help but not like this”, I say and walk to the door.
“Blair, wait!” I hear him say. I stand and wait to hear him out because I’m tired of running away. Silence stood between us for what felt like an eternity. He didn’t say anything but knew he had something to say. It made me realise, I want the words he doesn’t have and I’m stuck trying to figure out how he feels so I just walked away, again.
He made me teach myself how to be strong.But was I being stong?
Author's Note.
Heavy stuff, yahhhh or nahhhh?
What do you think? Was Blair being strong?
It might not be right but isn't it easier sometimes to just runaway?
Leave yah thoughts and comments. Since I've not updated in a few, another chapter coming up ~ Tisha💛
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