Bad Timing - Jiara (JJ Maybank & Kiara Carrera)

Chapter 15

"i thought we should talk..." she dismayed as they stand in the middle of the path, which was a few miles away from the legal party, and facing the illegal after party with drugs and teenagers who are way too high to function.

"there's nothing to talk about" JJ blunts out erratically as he continues walking, completely ignoring kiara.

"that's not true" she scoffs humorously, even though she meant no sarcasm making him stop in his tracks.

"so what do you want me to say, huh?" his voice marginally increased, slightly turning around to see tears filling her eyes, which made him realize he had no right being mad. 

JJ's hands rub his face in utter distress as Kie blinks away her tears, her hand wiping the bottom of her nose while her head inched to the side, showing him none of the pain he knew he caused her. The boy hates making her cry, for he doesn't mean to take it out on her, but truth be told, no one has stuck for him for this long before, that's why he keeps messing up, yet it's killing him. 

"I don't know what to tell you Kiara; i am sorry for causing a scene in front of everyone? I am sorry that i lost my shit? I am sorry that i beat someone up?" he says in an obvious agitated manner, before he pauses waiting for her to add to the conversation, but she didn't, and so he continued.

"...well i am not, I am not sorry, so.." JJ trails off as his shoulder's drop. Kiara was silent the entire time, which made the tranquility grow uncomfortable.

"I don't care about that stupid fight with Topper, for all i know, he deserved that," Kie admits, "but i thought you were done with all that" she mumbles, slowly stepping closer to him, and he could sense the dissapointment that was coming from her as the light hits her, revealing her face expressions.

"i thought- i thought i was doing the right thing, but...but i fucked up! i fucked up again!" JJ yells furiously as they both stand frozen in their place, wordless, having no clue what to do next.

"I just want to know...what he meant," she says slowly, which made him gulp nervously, "'throw me off a rooftop', what does that even mean? why did it trigger you this much?" her questions continue, making him get more and more anxious of the truth finally coming out.

"do i have to talk about it?" he asks with sorrow as his head dropped to the floor, but she wouldn't blame him for not being strong enough to speak the truth; the past 2 days have been hell for him. He normally runs away then comes back when the problems sorts it self out, but that's not the case this time, for he was unable to do that. 

"no...it's fine if you don't want to-" Kiara acknowledges , even though she wanted to know the truth. 

"will you get mad?" He questions, caring about her feeling more than his own time and time again which made her sigh dejectedly at an instant. 

"I was never mad..." She reassures him, as she walks further, "I just felt stupid when i read a freaking text message telling me you had a sister, who i am guessing passed away. I wanted you to tell me, I wanted you to open up to me, the same way I opened up to you." She sighs again, biting her lip apprehensively, as she holds the urge to just pull him into the welfare of her hug. 

"I know...but I already told you, I am not good at that stuff, it's not that I don't want to talk to you...it's just-I don't know how" He admits as his mournful eyes stare deep into her inconsolable unsettlingly deep ones.

"last time, instead of just telling me what my father told you about not being good enough," she pauses as the topic was a strong one for the both, "you broke my heart JJ-you doomed us ever being in a relationship" Kie speaks again, which made even JJ himself emotional.