I could feel Matthew's gaze on me as I sat there looking at the floor.
I didn't wanna face reality, it scared me. I never wanted to end up this way but things change, people change. I wanted to hide away and forget but in life I always seem to fall on the negative side of things, I don't choose to, they just..happen. I always felt like I was empty inside, that feeling has always been there since I was 7 years old.
Some how things had started to get worse for me ever since then, I mean just look at me. At the age of 12 my parents divorced, when I had turned 15 my mom was killed in a car crash, my dad left without even saying a word to me after, my Bestfriend died from the same causes my mom had.
Why did I get the down fall of things? All I wanted to be was happy, I try so hard to look on the bright side but for me there is no bright side. Sometimes I just want people to forget me. I don't them to have to feel hurt because I'm hurting. I try to act like everything's okay but the hurt eats at me everyday, it's hard to plaster a huge fake smile on my face.
It's all an act.
I was shaken out of my thoughts when I felt a light tap on my shoulder. I turned to see Matthew staring at me.
"You should get out of the house today."
"And do what?" I said halfheartedly.
"Just get out and go somewhere, like the park." He said.
"That's fine I guess." I said while standing up and walking to the bathroom.
I put on a little bit of mascara than pulled my hair into a messy bun. I grabbed a pair of regular black tights and a oversized sweater and put on my boots.
"You ready?"
"Yep." I whispered.
The car ride was quiet to the park, I didn't wanna have a conversation. I knew it would all lead back to what happened earlier. I didn't wanna talk or think about it, but unfortunately that's all that I've thought about.
We pulled into a parking space and got out the car than walked over to a small bench and sat down. I felt like everybody was staring at me. All I wanted to do was sleep and just think, but my thoughts brought me down. All I ever do is think, I over think so many things.
I looked up to see a blond headed girl staring at me, this time I knew she was actually focusing on me. I shifted around uncomfortably in my seat and realized she started walking over to me. I looked on the ground until I heard a squeaky voice from infront of me. I looked up and saw the girl infront of me.
"You're Jen right?"
"That's me, do I know you or something?" I asked confusingly.
"Oh I'm sorry, my name is Brooke." She smiled.
"Well it's uh nice to meet you Brooke."
"You're Cameron Dallas's girlfriend right?" She said while sitting down.
"Yea, u-um why?"
"You don't know do you?" She said.
"Know what?" I asked.
"We should probably go some place warmer, this may take a while."
a/n: wow this is short, sorry about that.
