I woke up with an empty space beside me, I looked at the clock to see it was 10:22 a.m.
I texted Cameron to see where he was, but he never answered. I got up and walked to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. I rolled up my sleeves and washed my face.
I heard a knock on the door and opened it to reveal a messy headed Matthew.
"Morning." He said.
"Morning Matt." I smiled.
I wiped off with my face with a cloth then brushed my teeth.
"What is that?" Matthew stared at me.
"What are you talking about?" I knew exactly what he was talking about and pulled down my sleeves.
"Roll back up your sleeves." He said with a shaky voice.
"No." I looked at the ground and felt my face become heated.
He came closer and grabbed my hand and rolled up my sleeve. I felt a tear slide down my cheek as I knew that he saw.
"Why?" He was crying.
"It's not important." I said trying to keep myself from breaking down.
"It's important to me, please tell me why." He said while wiping my tears.
"I-It was after my mom died. Things got rough and that's how I relieved my pain, but it never lasted. The pain would come back harder and stronger next time." I could feel my self crumbling at every word.
"W-When was the last time you.. did this.."
"3 days ago.." I broke down and couldn't stop.
I could feel Matthew wrap his arms around me and hold me tightly. My body shook slightly as I sobbed into his chest. I could feel him self trying to hold back his whimpers.
"I'm so sorry." He breathed.
"Please don't tell anyone, please Matthew." I cried out.
"I won't." He said while hugging me tighter.
I didn't want anybody to find out, I always tried to cover them with my makeup that I had, it usually worked. I couldn't take anymore hurt right now. It would be to much to handle. It scared me about what I may do if something bad happened.
Those thoughts always clouded my mind.
I could feel Matthew trace over my scars and kiss the top of my forehead.
It made me feel better some but all I could do was cry. I couldn't stop from the tears from falling.
"Thank you." I said between sobs.
"Don't worry okay, just let me help you right now."
And with that I felt myself calm down some and I looked into Matthew's eyes and felt something.
Something I can't explain.
