I slightly opened my eyes as I looked around the room, my head was pounding and I felt sick.
I looked to my side to see Cameron, his eyes bloodshot and his face colorless. I don't think he's slept at all. I stared at him as he typed away on his laptop. I quietly slid off the bed and walked over to him.
"Have you gone to sleep yet?"
"No, I was worried about you." He half smiled.
I kissed his cheek softly and sat down next to him while interlocking our fingers.
"Thank you for last night." I said softly.
His expression changed quickly, a look I've never seen on his face. A look of hurt and anger.
"I'm not gonna let anybody hurt you, I'd hate myself if anyone did."
I smiled halfheartedly and layed my head on his shoulder. I just wanted to be here and lay in his arms. Not caring about the rest of the day, but I knew I'd have to talk to Matthew sooner or later.
I got up from where I sat with Cameron and walked into the bathroom. I looked at myself and I didn't look good. I had bags under my eyes and black streaks of mascara running down my face from last night, I noticed a slight cut on the apple of my right cheek. I didn't want people to see me like this, suddenly it hit me. Where is Jade?
I ran out to Cameron almost crashing into him, I could tell he noticed I looked worried.
"Where is Jade?" I asked quietly.
"She's back at your place."
"Why didn't she come check on me?" I asked louder.
"She went back with somebody."
"Who?" I said sternly
"Matthew." He said.
I just stared at him not knowing what to say. Why did Matthew go with her to my place? I had so many different thoughts running through my mind. I felt my eyes swell up with tears as I turned my face slightly hoping Cameron wouldn't see anything.
I thought to myself "why am I crying?"
My cheeks burned then flushed a crimson red, I walked out onto the balcony letting the cool air hit my skin softly. The breeze felt nice on my heated skin.
I heard the door behind me open slightly as I saw Cameron walk beside me and place his arm around my waist. I knew he already saw my tear stained face.
I'm happy he didn't ask why I was crying, I wasn't in the mood to explain anything. Why were things so hard for me to take in now? I was never like this I was always a strong person, I never showed my emotions like I do now.
"Jen?"
"Yea?" I said quietly.
"Do you have a thing for Matthew.." He looked at me with a blank expression.
"Wha- why would you think that?"
"The way you act towards him gives it off." He sighed.
"I don't have feelings for him." I was lying to myself, I do feel something for him.
I need to talk to Matthew I can't wait any longer, the anger flowing through me because he went to my place with jade was igniting more and more. I walked off away from Cameron and grabbed my phone, keys, and shoes then ran out the door to my car.
"Where are you going?!" He asked worriedly following me.
"Just let me go for a while I'll be back! Go back to your room!" I yelled.
"Get back here! Please." Plead in his voice.
I drove off quickly with tears falling down my face. I don't know what I want anymore, why am I so naive.
I would feel my phone vibrate from under the palm of my hand. I took a quick look seeing I had 16 texts from Cameron and 4 missed calls.
I heard it ring one more time then answered.
"Where are you going, I'm so worried." He said.
"I need some space, I need to think over some things. Please just don't call anymore." I felt a lump in the back of my throat forming.
"Please just come back, I don't want you out alone."
"Cameron, ple-"
I dropped my phone mid sentence and looked up to see a car swerve into my lane, bright lights coming closer and everything suddenly went black.
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hi loves😋 sorry this took so long to update but I've had such a busy weekend and never had time! Hopefully Ya'll will enjoy this💓.
