Reality hit me as I took a step back, it was him. The person I never wanted to see ever again, fear held me right in my spot. I couldn't move, I couldn't scream, or say anything. All I could see were his eyes looking through me.
He placed his hand on the door and smiled a big smile, not a pleasant one either. The only thing that escaped my lips were "Damon."
That name was venom to me it's like it stopped me from being able to function right. He still looked the same as always, jet black hair with crystal blue eyes.
I thought I loved him, I trusted him with everything I had in me, if he said that the sky would be purple today I would've believed him.
I felt his eyes look me up and down, studying every inch of me. It took all I had to look at him, to look into his eyes. He looked back at me, what felt like hours of looking at Eachother it was probably 2 seconds before I had enough courage to say something.
"What are you doing here?" I said faintly.
"I needed to see you, I miss you."
"How did you know where I've been staying..?" My voice cracking at every word.
"I know some people, but look I want to ask for a second chance. I just couldn't stand the fact of you leaving..I'm so sorry, things weren't supposed to end like this."
I was shocked by his words, why couldn't he tell me this before any of this ever happened? Why does he decide to tell me now?
"You think that this changes anything? You can't take away all the pain you've caused me!" I felt a lump in my throat starting to form. "You honestly think this takes away all the busted lips and cuts you've caused me? Why would I give a second chance to the person who hurt me everyday, why would I give a second chance to the person I'm terrified of.." I felt him grab my arm and yank me towards him.
"If you wouldn't have made all the wrong choices I wouldn't of had to put you in your place! You needed to learn!" He pulled me closer, our faces inches apart, anger running through him as he stared into my eyes.
"I'm not letting you go, not again." He said with a growl in his voice.
*flash back*
"Jen stop crying." He said.
I looked at him and closed my eyes tightly, trying to stop the tears from flowing. How did I end up like this? I don't want this anymore, but only stronger and louder sobs escaped.
That's when he snapped, when it all went wrong from there.
Screams filled the room as he tore the place up, I couldn't stand his screams and just turned everything off. It's like my ears wouldn't let me hear anymore, all I saw was a glass get thrown into the wall as liquor spilled every where.
He grabbed me by the back of my shirt pulling me off the ground, shoving me back into the wall as I hit hard and falling to the ground.
He stood hovering over me and acted as if nothing was wrong, when everything was wrong. A relationship wasn't supposed to be like this, the people should love eachother no matter what, but this wasn't love.
This will never be love, but that's I thought.
"For now on you do what I tell you, don't bother trying to retaliate it'll just make it worse." He said as he grabbed a bottle of liquor and walked out the door.
That's when I ran, that's when I left everything thing behind and never looked back. I didn't ever wanna remember those moments, ever.
*end of flashback*
"Why did you leave me?" He said taking a step closer.
"I was scared.. I thought you were gonna hurt or k-.." That's when I lost it, all the fear and all the hurt taking over while I layed there sobbing infront of the person I was most terrified of.
He did something, something that I never had him do before. He wrapped his arms around me and hugged me tightly, i squirmed for a couple of minutes until I knew that maybe this could help relieve some fears about him.
I wasn't gonna let my guard down, I knew he would be able to take advantage of me if I did. I held in the sobs and shook while he held me close.
I've never seen this side of him, one part of me was happy that he was different but another part of me was terrified that this would all just end in sadness and fear.
The thing that scared me the most was that maybe I would fall for him again..
