P.o.v Patrick
I feel as if the breath is literally stolen from my lungs. I choke a bit, trying to take a proper breath. I don't need to understand what the first two words mean- all I need to understand is Leukemia and I know.
Cancer.
You always hear of other people's stories, but I am one of those people now. There is no going back.
I realize that I have been silent for several minutes, and finally clear my throat, "I- I, um..." I try to say, unable to make eye contact with my bearer of tragedy.
I lick my dry lips, and try again, "What does that mean?" I know it's a stupid question, but I can't stand the silence anymore.
"It means that you have a fast-acting form of Leukemia... Cancer. We still need to conduct more research, but we believe that it has started in your 'B-cells', which is in your bone marrow." He says, his voice attempting to drill into my foggy mind, but nothing is making sense. I feel like I'm going to be sick.
"I'll give you a moment." He says, interrupting another unintentional silence, patting my shoulder on his way by. Once the door closes behind him, I am panting, trying to breath without realizing I was holding my breath moments before. I have no idea why but I can't stop, and I clutch my stomach, trying to calm down.
No.
This is a dream, some kind of twisted delusion. I can't have cancer. I can't.
What about Elisa?
The fans?
The guys?I can't leave them. I can't. I have to fight this. But maybe I'm getting ahead of myself?
But suddenly I'm angry. I'm angry with myself- my body, more like it. I can't help it, I can't contain anythign inside- I yell. I yell out of pure frustration, pounding my fist on the uncomfortable bed I'm sitting on- not caring if anyone can hear me.
I feel tears streak down my face- tears I hadn't even known were there until they dropped onto my jeans. I can't do this, how am I supposed to?
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In Sickness and in Health ( Fall out boy )
FanfictionA word that strikes fear into the hearts of humanity. A word that affects nearly everyone. A word that has killed millions, and continues mercilessly on its murderous rampage. A word that is now all too familiar to Fall Out Boy.