grofflin

Move in with me?

Lin's pov

After Groffs story about his deceased friends, I realised just how much I not only hurt him, but also how much I hurt myself.

As I take the final bow, I grab Pippa's arm to walk off stage, I pretend to look around, but all I'm really looking at is the back of Groffs head. His hair is just the most beautiful, I want to hug him so bad and let my hands run through his hair. Wait wtf, why I am I thinking of Groffs hair, maybe it's just because I'm grieving. Oh, Vanessa I miss you so much.

The second we step out of the audience view, I grab Jonathan's hand and pulled him with me to our changing room. He kinda chuckles." What's going on? Why are you in such a hurry?" "Shhhh, I'll tell you when we're in a private room, I don't want everyone to know about.... ya know" a flash of sadness pulls across his face, like a dark cloud on a beautiful summer day." I know" he almost whispers it, but I can still hear it. I give his hand an extra squeeze.

I close the door behind us. "Iamwillingtoworkonit,Iwanttostopallrightwillyoupleasemoveinwithme?" I say in one breath, almost afraid that he will say no, that I blew it, that he doesn't trust me enough. "Slow down" he gives a slight chuckle. " Take a deep breath and try again". I take his advice and let my lungs take all the oxygen in. I look him in the eyes. "I promise, I know..." I'm cut off by Jonathan hugging me so tight that I can't breathe for a second. I hear him softly choking out a few words." Are you sure? I need you to be 100 percent in". I take in a shaky breath before talking. "Yeah, I'm willing to work on it, I want to stop." He let's go off me and I see the brightest smile on his face.

Groffs pov

"This is going to be hard Lin, you will want to cut again. You need to be completely honest with me and tell me when you feel the urge to do so." My heart is pounding a million beats per second in my chest, while I'm looking at his face. He looks me and the eyes and my heart flutters even faster. "Yeah, I feel like I can do this, with your help, I can do anything". I feel my cheeks reddening just a bit, because he is staring in my eyes so deeply as I stare back all I see is pure honesty. We spend a few seconds like that, completely silent, speaking through eye contact. Finally, Lin breaks the silence. " move in with me?". His voice sounds shaky, nervousness laced in the words. "Of course," I answer. I give him an extra tight hug, before letting him go.

I leave Lin behind in the dressing room saying a quick bye. I practically skip to the Schuyler sisters dressing room. With a big grin on my face. At first the girls don't really take notice that I walked in the room, mumbling a quick hi, before resuming their make-up. I see Pippa staring in the mirror the mirror at me, while I still can't get this smile of my face. "What's up? What are you so happy about?". Says Pippa with a slight smile around her lips and one eyebrow raised. Renee and Yazzy notice it now too. "Yeah, you do look kinda happy, the last few days all you have done is sulk and be sad, because of your fight with Lin" Renee says, Yazzy chimes in " you still haven't told us what the fight was about anyways". I smile a bit more " Lin and I made up, he asked me to move in with him, as friends of course" the last part I say quietly, but still with a big smile on my face. "What, that's so good John. I'm really happy that you guys made up" Pippa says. "Yeah, even though I still don't think that's its good for you to move in with your crush, I am glad you guys made up" Renee say, granting me a little smile.

"Omg guys, I just feel so relieved. I'm not going to lose him". I do a little dance, letting my arms fly up in the air. Pippa and Yazzy giggle a bit about my behaviour. "So how did you guys make up?" Renee asks. I think for a second, about how to explain it without mentioning the self-harm. "Uhm, so Lin was handling with the grief in a way that wasn't healthy or helping him, so we had a talk just now and he promised to find another way to process his grief" my heart starts beating a bit faster, hoping I didn't give away too much. Pippa raises her eyebrow and I see Renee thinking. I lie a little to make sure they don't know. "You saw him when we were showing him the Vanessa video, all he did was sleep and eat, he wasn't taking care of himself and he wasn't getting out of that cycle" I say, hoping that was enough to throw them off the track. " I guess" Pippa says. "I mean it's only been like two weeks since she died, don't you think that it was kind of normal I mean- uh I don't know..." Renee says. "Well either way I'm just happy you guys made up, I hate it when the people I love fight with each other" Yazzy says with a smile on her face.

We put on a bit of spice girls and start lip syncing. We are jumping around singing a long when I see Lin walking by. He stops and stares at us, a slight smile around his face. There is still so much sadness in his eyes. Maybe he can forget it just for a second if he comes dance with us? I quickly pull him inside. "Come dance with us" "no, I really shouldn't" his response is kinda cold, but I think I can convince him. I pull him into a hug whispering in his ear." It's all right to just have fun Lin, even if it's just for a moment, please come dance with us, it might make you feel just a little bit better". He gives in and smiles just a little, before I pull him into the circle that Renee, Pippa and Yazzy are standing in. He starts singing along to the words and dancing a bit, he still isn't his usual life of the party, but I think it's progress. He just might be okay.