grofflin

I hate you

I'm pretending Jack looks like the random actor in this picture. Also in a few  chapters it will get better for Jonathan and Lin. Sorry for the torture xd. (Again don't be afraid to put some constructive critism or grammar faults in the comments :) )
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Groff's pov

"You're crazy". I respond. I push past him. "Where is Sebbie?". I ask looking around the small living room. "Relax love, don't worry he is in my room". I immediately walk into Jacks room. Sebbie is sitting peacefully on the bed. I sigh in relieve. 'Thank god he is okay'. He turns around to see me standing in the doorway. "Papa" he says while reaching out his arms towards me. I quickly walk over and lift him up from the red satin sheets. I hug him very tight, burying my head in his neck, I let out a few tears. "You're going to be okay, Sebs, Papa is going to keep you safe". I whisper in his ear. Sebbie puts a hand on my cheek, leaning in to give me a kiss. After he gives me the wettest kiss ever, I laugh a bit, he notices my laugh and starts giggling.

I feel a shiver going down my spine. "See love I told you I wouldn't hurt our son, unless you got the police". "I hate you" I mutter under my breath. I put Sebbie down "I put some paw patrol toys down in that room Sebbie, go play". At the words Paw Patrol he perks up following my finger towards the living room. He waddles of the few brown hairs that he has, bobbing up and down with every step. I get up and face Jack. "Let's be adults here and let me and Sebbie go". I say trying to avoid eye contact. He lifts his fingers to my chin, gently lifting it up, forcing me to look in his icy emotionless eyes. "But why would I do that my love, I love you and our son". I visibly cringe trying to pull my chin out of his hand, but he tightens his grip, holding my chin forcefully. I exhale shakily. "He isn't our son, he is Lin's son". "Shhhh my love, let's not mention that hateful name here". He says while caressing my cheek gently. He lets go off my chin and gives me a gentle pat on my cheek. "Now don't mention that name again, or our son, won't be alive for much longer" he says in sing songy voice. I watch him walk out the door. God how I would love to grab his brown hair with blonde tips and beat him up. Rage wells up inside me as pinch myself trying to express it. 'God, I hope Lin is okay' I think before leaving the sultry bedroom of Jack. "You and Sebbie can sleep in the guest bedroom for the first few days". Jack says without looking up from his book. I grab the bag I took from home and put it in the guest bedroom. My new prison is decorated with plants, a green bed, with red touches here and there. The bed has red pillows, the plants red berries. The wallpaper is a swirl of red and green hues.

Over the next few days, I try to take my eyes of off Sebbie as little as possible. I've slept like 2 hours each night, not only worrying about Sebbie but also about Lin. I yawn as I watch Sebbie play with his paw patrol trucks. Please god let Lin be all right I think while looking up at the white ceiling. I look down from the ceiling and look to Jack sitting on a red couch 'man what is it with guy and red' I think before gathering up the courage to talk to him. "I know you made it very clear that I shouldn't mention "him", please just tell me if he is all right, that is all I want to know. After that I will be good, I promise". He sighs. "All right, I'll tell you, but after that no more of this, love". He says while standing up, he gets his phone out. He walks towards me while swiping, searching for something. "Aha" he whispers under his breath. I get this eerie feeling from his smile. It is making me uncomfortable, I shift in my seat, moving my gaze from Jack to Sebbie, who is still playing with his truck.

I flinch as Jack reaches his phone screen over to me "no touching love". He is holding up an article, I read the headline, hoping Lin is all right.

Hamilton creator: Lin-Manuel Miranda dies from wounds in hospital.

"Oh my god" I whisper, before breaking down in tears. "Shhhh, shh my love, you will forget him soon, don't worry". Jack says while pulling me into a hug. I let myself be embraced by his arms. 'I will never see Lin again' I think to myself. 'Never see his beautiful smile again, never hear him sing again, never see him get upset over chuggington again, never hold him again, never kiss him again, never- never- never be able to love him again". I choke out a sound. Meanwhile Jack keeps rubbing soothing circles on my back. I hate that he is the one comforting me right now, I'm being comforted by the killer of my one true love. I try to pull away from his warm embrace, but I don't have the strength, instead letting myself cry into his arms. Letting the sweet poison from his lips, wash over me. "Shh my love, he didn't deserve you anyways. You'll be better of with me".

I try to argue against him, try to say that my Lin was the best person in the world, the only one of two people that I need to survive this cold world". Sebbie leaves his truck, and wobbles over to me and Jack. "Papa" he says sadly while letting himself fall onto my side. 'Sebbie only has me now' I think to myself. I finally gather up the courage to break myself lose from Jacks hug. I put on a brave face for Sebbie and pick him up. "It's okay Sebbie, Papa is all right" my voice breaking, revealing my true feelings.

2 Week time skip (brought to you by me breaking my own heart)

(rape mention warning)

I have been sulking around for the last few weeks. Thinking about Lin but trying not to cry in front of that bastard or Sebs. The only time I could truly express my feeling was when both of them had gone to bed and I was still awake. I would let myself fall down on the bed, trying to silence my sobs with my hand, to not wake Sebbie up. Eventually crying myself to sleep. Almost every morning I would still wake up crying, leaving tear stains all over the green sheets.

Today I am once again sulking in the living room, watching Sebbie carefully as he plays with a random box. It's almost bedtime for him I think looking at the clock. "Come on Sebbie, time for bed Kiddo". He starts running away while giggling. I start chasing after him, putting on a smile for him. He climbs on to the red couch. "Aha, I got you now". I say to him, picking him up and carrying him to his room. After putting a new nappy on him, he lays down on the bed. "Night night" I say before giving him a kiss on the forehead. "Ni ni" he babbles back. I give the one-year-olds brown hair one last ruffle before going to the kitchen to throw away the nappy. I've just thrown the nappy in to the bin, when I shiver. I feel two arms wrap around my waist. "Hi, my love" I hear Jack whisper in my ear. God, I hate his arms around me, they make me feel nauseous, as if I'm going to throw up any minute. "Uhm hi" I say with a very uncomfortable voice. "So, my love, I've given you some time to get over him. I was thinking we could, you know, have some fun". Ewwwwww is the first thing I think, I would rather jump of a building than have sex with Jack. He starts licking my earlobe. I cringe, a lot. "Please no, just give me some more time". I whisper, my eyes pressed firmly closed. Jack turns me around, forcing me to look in his eyes. "Aww come on love, you can't tell me that the sex with that other dude was good". My face turns a little red and I humph. "It was actually better than you will ever be in bed" I bluff. Jack apparently knows I'm bluffing as he as an evil smile on his face. "If you even had sex" he says with an innocent look in his eyes. I just get redder, trying to look away from his face. He once again, puts his fingers under my chin, forcing me to look into his emotionless blue eyes. "So, you didn't have sex with that nobody, all the more reason to do it with me now". I freeze up as he leans over and kisses my cheek. He reaches a little further over to my ear and whispers "besides if you want what's best for our son, you'll know what to choose". I shiver at his breath, tickling my ear. 'God, I hate this man so much' I think before answering. "Fine, but I get to be top" I whisper, hoping the words didn't actually come out of my mouth. They did however leave my mouth, two seconds before Jack starts kissing me. I resist the urge to puke as I feel his tong slipping in. He then pulls me into his bedroom.

The next morning, I wake up with Jack spooning me. For a second I am disoriented, wondering why I am not in the bed with Sebbie. Then I remember, a wave of memories and guilt washing over me. I suddenly feel dirty. I try to pick up his arm around me and roll away without him waking up. I hear him stir next to me, as I freeze up. "Where are you going my love". "To take a shower" I reply, my breath shaky. "Fine, but first give me a kiss" Jack says while sleepily pointing at his lips. I lean over reluctantly, quickly giving him a kiss and pulling away as fast as I can, picking up a sheet to cover myself up in the progress. I quickly leave the red bedroom. As I walk towards the shower. The tears start falling down at a rapidly pace.

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Credits to Gerda for the word 'revealing', which I couldn't remember ;).