Dreams Over Reality

Im Not Dreaming About Nightmares

I woke up stumbling to the bathroom
Stomach filled with poison and my life's doomed
Broken mirror and a black force where Death loomed
My mind's foggy and hazy
I can feel my body getting lazy
The vomit stirs up and it spurts like crazy
But it isn't the food from last night
It's the blood from my lungs because of that last fight
But I woke up again and I'm alone
With scars on my body that I haven't sewn
The darkness above creeps into my face
And when I least expect it, my heart starts to race
And I'm bleeding through these open scars
Like I didn't just pour out my heart
I'm just tired of feeling lonely in the nighttime
Especially whenever I call the fucking lifeline
You were supposed to help me
Not deter me
But here we go and I'm climbing to the top of the house
So I jump off and finally douse
This burning flame inside my chest
Even though you know I was trying my best
I still don't think you see reality as it stands
But I know that the rope is breaking into strands
And we're drifting further and further apart
Soon we'll be back to the start
And you won't know how to talk to me
As hateful as it sounds, I don't think it was a place for you to be
Fuck it I guess
I'm tired of dealing with the stress
Feeling like I'm dreaming about you
When I'm really looking straight through
And seeing the true colors beneath your eyes
And maybe then I'll realize
That reality won't ever be as real as I thought
And that I really shouldn't have shot my shot
We're better off alone on two sides of the same sword
And there's no more getting on your knees and praying to the lord
When there's more problems to deal with than talking to the sky
And crying into your pillow and letting the thoughts pry
Into your subconscious soul
I feel like I have to cross the Dead Sea and still pay the fucking toll
Like I didn't give enough to die and pass onto the end
I guess I'm stuck in the in-between once again