I Need You Like A Heartbeat

Chapter seven

-Louis-

I rested my head against the side of the window in the car. The window was cold, while the heat in the car warmed me. Harry was driving, we've only been on the road for a little while and he's already changed the station to some old rock. He said he's trying to staying awake, but I think he just wanted an excuse to sing.

"CHAIN, KEEP US TOGETHER." He screamed.

"Harry I swear, I will literally punch you if you don't shut up."

"Come on Louis, good vibes only." He continued singing.

"You are so lucky I love you."

He turned to me and smiled. I rolled my eyes and turned back to the window. Everything moved by so fast, it kind of made me dizzy looking it at. I closed my eyes and listened to Harry jam out to Fleetwood Mac.

"Louis, are you excited the see your family?"

"In a way." I replied.

"In a way?" He turned down the music.

"Harry, I just don't want it to be the last time I see them."

"Louis, you have a long time."

"Is, now, six months enough time, is it a long time?"

"No, I'm sorry, I just-"

"It's okay hun, I just don't want this to be the last time."

"I know."

"Well, let's change the subject, I have been to depressing the last month. Harry tell me something exciting." I said, opening my eyes and looking over to him.

"Hmmm, OH MY GOSH! There was the cutest cat on Instagram today. His name is Benny he is two weeks old and he's gray, I think we should get him Louis. Can we get a cat? LOUIS I WANT A CAT!"

"Calm down curly," he smirked at him, "maybe-"

"YAY!"

"I never said yes Haz."

"When you say maybe, you mean yes."

"When have I said maybe, and meant yes?"

"Well when I asked you if I could buy the two pairs of shoes I wanted, our holiday last year, when I wanted that jumper that was really expensive, when we bought a-"

"Okay, I guess, maybe sometimes."

"See."

"Fine."

"So yes?"

"Maybe."

"So yes!" He said.

I giggled at his playfulness. I was starting to think about how my mum was going to be when she first sees me today. The girls? Did she tell the girls? The twins might not get it right away, but Fizz and Lottie will. I don't know if I can tell them myself. I turned to Harry who was happily smiling and singing the song that was currently playing.

I realized that we were getting close. I know I have to tell them. I know I do, but I just- I don't know if I can.

"Harry?"

"Mhmm?" He kept his eyes on the road.

"I don't know if I can tell the girls, it's just gonna be so hard, they're so young."

"I know Lou." He frowns and looked toward me.

"How to do you tell little girls that their big brothers going to die?"

"You don't."

"What? You're the one that wanted me to tell mum."

"No, just tell them that you're sick."