Owned And Treasured ✔︎ [unedited]

Chapter 27

GIVE UP

CRYSTAL

“Youʼre crying again baby, what happened?”

I was pretty unconscious that Adrian was beside me. All I know is that mag-isa lang ako sa kwarto ko habang magdamag na umiiyak while hugging my self and asking, what could make things right except for letting go. Of course I couldnʼt answer the question myself, so I gotta think wisely. What could be better than that? I meant, what should I do without letting go of him?

“Nothing happened, Adrian, so please leave me alone for now. I wanna be alone.” I begged as I slowly and gently push him away.

“It has been 4 years of friendship we had and you always tell me about anything that bothers you, what happened now?” he gave a deep sigh. The meaningful ones. And I think that made me realize my state.

“Nothing happened.” pag-uulit ko. Itʼs just wala akong masabi o masagot man lang sa kaniya pero kung sakaling si Calvin mismo ang magtatanong, may maisasagot ba ako?

I acted like—what I said—nothing happened as if I was a professional actress. I donʼt really even know how to act.

He grabbed my hand and his eyes pleased, “Tell me...” he said.

I sighed instead of refusing myself.

“What happened, is what happened. Kahit sabihin ko, wala kang magagawa at mababago.” I said. Breathing slowly.

“Thatʼs not what I am expecting to hear from you.” he replied and he gave the look.

“Then what do you expect?” I was halfway raising my voice, I should control it.

“I expected you to tell me what happened.”

“Okay fine.”

I think I gave my last deep sigh to him. Iʼll leave after this conversation. Iʼll make sure of that.

“I am... Ahm... I am jealous.” sambit ko habang napapakagat sa ibabang bahagi ng labi ko. Kinokontrol ko ang bawat salita na sinasabi ko at hindi ko napapansin na nauutal na ako.

“Jealous on whom?” he asked, unpredictably.

“With my best friend.”

Kumunot ang noo niya. Looks like wala siyang idea about that. Looks like hindi niya alam kung sinong tinutukoy ko at kung bakit ako nagseselos.

Hanggang doon lang sana ang conversation namin pero tinanong niya ako kung bakit.

“Because youʼre always with her.”

“Iʼm not.” he replied, again, unpredictably.

“I knew you would deny that.” I smiled. “Iʼm sorry, ngayon ko lang nasabi ʼto.”

“Nah, itʼs fine. At least ngayon alam ko na. Donʼt worry, hindi ko naman siya gusto. In fact, youʼre the one I really like.” he said. His sincerity made me felt contentment. Even though deep inside in my heart, I really canʼt bare with him anymore. What I said was enough. Iʼm contented with that.

Actually, it wasnʼt jealousy the only one I wanted to tell him. I also wanna tell him how much I cried for his brother, Calvin. Gosh! It was 3 nights straight.

Umaasa pa rin ako sa kaniya. Umaasa pa rin akong may nararamdaman pa siya para sa akin. I hope he still love me.

“Leave me alone just for tonight, Adrian.” I begged.

Nakita ko sa mata niya ang kagustuhan niyang manatili pa rito sa tabi ko habang yakap yakap ako pero patulo na ang mga luha ko at hindi ko kayang makita niya akong ganito. I feel so desperate inside.