Hurricane - Peter Parker X Reader (Book 3)

Chapter 20 - Find my Happiness

Ever since I got Peter back, my life had done 360. Even with those we truly lost, I just felt happier for some reason.  I felt more at peace, with everything going on.

Losing Tony was a hard hit emotionally hard, but I feel like Tony couldn't have gone out any other way. I had accepted the fact that he was gone, a lot quicker than I had for Peter.

One thing you had to learn in a world like this is you never know when something is going to be taken away from you, so enjoy every second you have of it.

Wanda was pretty shaken by the loss of Vision,  so I was there to help her through it. Those we lost in the battle of Thanos would not be forgotten.

Thor had left with the Guardians. I hadn't really known Guardians after the events of the Titan. but no matter how dumb they seemed, they were really great people.

''Hey,'' Peter smiled, coming and sitting down next to me. The smile grew on my face, as I moved closer to him. His arm went around my shoulders, gently rubbing my arm.

Peter would joke around with me, because five years ago,  I was not one for PDA. Now I just didn't want to let go them.

We had fallen into a beautiful silence till I spoke up a few minute later.

''You know Pete, I wanted to stop fighting so many times over the past five years,'' I sighed. Peter looked down at my sympathetically.

''Nat would always reassure me that something good would come out of this mess. She told me to keep fighting, whatever it took, because she knew I was going to have you back again one day,'' I told him.

''She sounded like a great woman,'' he said, I nodded my head, leaning down to rest on his shoulder.

A few minutes later, Steve had walked into the room.

''Y/N can I talk to you?'' Steve asked with a hint of urgency in his voice. 

My face showed a bit of confusion, but I got up anyway, following after him.

He had gone into a different room, shutting the door behind me. I walked over to one of the chairs, sitting down, ready for him to speak. He came over, sitting in front of me.

I told tell by the look on his face that it was something serious. ''So uh,... I had this plan,'' He started, finding words to say.

''And, well I wanted to run it by you before anything happened,'' I nodded my head signaling for him to go on. 

''I've been thinking a lot over this and I wanna go live the life Tony was talking about. You have Peter, Tony had Pepper, and I just want to find some of that happiness.''

My body immediately had a shift in emotions as we both fell into a brief silence. He didn't have to say it, cause I already knew what he was talking about. Steve leaned forward a bit. ''Y/N/N, if you don't want me to go then I'll stay,'' he started.

I took a deep breath, thinking everything over before I started to speak. 

Steve has been there through everything. He has seen me at my worst and best moments. If he has helped me so much to reach my happiness why would I want to hold him back from getting his?

''No, Steve. I'm not going to hold you back from whatever you want to do. You've been here for me through thick and thin, and have done so much in my life... but I understand what you want to do,'' I said, slowly thinking over the words I had just say.

''Are you sure Y/N/N?'' He questioned. Tears brimmed my eyes as I nodded my head.

''You know, I meant what said when I said I would always be here for you... Just because it's not physically doesn't mean I won't be here,'' He placed his hand on my shoulder.

I look down to the ground, taking a deep breath.

''I'm going to miss you, Captain America.''

If this was before the battle where we got everyone back, there was no way I could've lived in a world without both Tony and Steve. Now everybody was back and things were different. Steve was right. He deserves to be happy just like the rest of us. He has done so much for me as well as the rest of the world.

I still couldn't shake the feeling of why this felt right. Why moving on felt right like it had to happen. It bothered me that this felt like it was the right thing for Steve.

Now that I lay here in bed, thinking of the millions of things Steve has done for me and all the memories we have together, is when the tears started flowing. I knew I had to be strong for Steve though.

All it took was him believing in me. It was the push and motivation I needed.

Somehow Steve always had the right right words to say. No matter how moral and annoying they were.

He was first one of the other the Avengers. I had open up to. The second one I had learned to trust.

We shared stories, trained together, and we fought Thanos together.

It was hard letting go, but it was the right thing to do.