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Deathbeds ; Chapter Three

Scars were everywhere, every time Phil thought back to that memory when he lost his friends, he cut.

School was in a few hours, and this always made Phil bipolar. He didn't know wether to be happy, for he could get away from his mother and father, or sad. He would be near Tommy, Allison, Kyle, Rebecca and every other asshole, even if Rebecca wasn't too bad.

Well, maybe he could get to know the new kid. He might be another friend. What's the harm in trying anyway?

The bus ride there was full of people throwing papers and teasing Phil, which he dealt with every morning. It didn't hurt him, it just was annoying.

The only time it hurt was when he would look at Tommy and Allison in the seat across from him, and they were almost always kissing. He couldn't get over Tommy, it was too difficult, so now he was stuck with never ending pain.

"What are you looking? Can't get over how hot I am?" Tommy said cockily, noticing Phil staring. Of course, this made him kiss her more intensely, which both disgusted and hurt Phil. What did he even see in her?

"Quit staring at my boyfriend, he doesn't go for fags." Allison spat, and then continued with shoving her tongue back down his throat.

Phil had to force my head to look the other way, he couldn't take it anymore.

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"Hey, Phil right?" The new kid, Dan bumped into him going to their class they had together.

"Yup. Dan, yea?" Phil asked, even though he definitely knew it was Dan. He just didn't want to seem like a complete loser, remembering his name while Dan wasn't sure about Phil's.

"Is your last name Lester by any chance?" Dan asked, creeping Phil a little bit, but he still nodded, "so you drew the Pikachu picture that's in the library?"

"Yeah, you saw it?" Phil said, feeling awfully shy.

"Yeah, it was amazing. I didn't know you could draw like that." Dan excitedly said. "Could you help me with my drawing? I'm really bad and it'd be fun to learn!"

"Of course, when would you want me to teach you?"

"Maybe I could text you?" Dan offered.

"I don't have a phone. What about twitter?" Phil replied.

"Sounds good, mines danisnotonfire, what about yours?"

"AmazingPhil." Phil replied.

"Alright, I'll follow you after school!" Dan told him and walked away. To Phil, Dan was extremely cute. The way his eyes were so happy and wrinkled when he smiled, and the dark brown shade of them was heavenly. But Phil knew it wouldn't go anywhere, he was probably just homophobic like everyone else.

"You like him, don't you. I guess he's pretty cute." Pj surprised Phil while he was staring at Dan walking to his next class.

"You scared me Peej, I thought you were Tommy."

"Oh, speaking of Tommy, he and Allison broke up. Apparently, she cheated on him, and for the first time out of the millions, he actually caught her." Pj said, and for some reason Phil was happy. It's not like this would increase his chances with Tommy, so why was he happy?

"It's about time he caught her. I feel bad for the next person that slut dates. But about the new guy, Dan, do you think he's homophobic? He sure is cute." Phil said, almost sighing, for Dan probably was homophobic just lying everyone else in this shit town.

"He's actually not. Since I'm so used to coming out to people, I told Dan. He said he was totally okay with it." Pj told Phil and Phil's happiness level increased dramatically.

"Well, I'm going to class. Maybe I'll actually go to lunch today, so, see ya then." Phil took Peej and they separated and went to their classes.

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It was now lunch time, and Phil had some troubles debating wether or not to go to lunch. Not that he would eat anyway. He hadn't let his body eat without throwing it up in ages. Phil's eating disorder was quite horrific, but he thought he was too fat, even though he was extremely thin.

The lunch room was filled with awful memories. Phil glanced over to the table he used to sit out. Over there was Kyle, Tommy, Rebecca, and Allison, who for some reason still sat next to Tommy, who did not look like he wanted to sit near her at all.

Rebecca soon saw Phil staring and he turned red and almost got lost. He looked around the lunch room, forgetting where he sat, until he located Pj and Chris..and Dan?

"Hey, you came today!" Chris said excitedly, then Pj grew a smile.

"Hey Phil! You can sit next to me." Dan said and patted the seat next to him. Phil threw his bag to the ground and sat down on the end seat next to Dan, making him feel warm and fuzzy inside.

"Dan was just telling us something pretty interesting, care to share Daniel?" Pj said and Dan rolled his eyes at the name Daniel but laughed.

"Oh, right. Yeah it's not a big deal but I'm bisexual. They seem pretty happy about it though." Dan told Phil and Phil saw Peej wink at him in the corner of his eye. "They tell me that you're gay? Which is totally okay." Dan asked Phil.

"Yeah, girls are gross." Phil said, making Dan laugh. It was a beautiful sound, and Phil admired the way that his white teeth showed perfectly and his eyes crinkled when he smiled. He was so cute.

Phil suddenly realized he was staring and looked down at the lunch table, feeling his face turn slightly pink from embarrassment. Phil pulled out his sketchbook and continued to draw the boy from his dreams. The dream had been occurring a lot more lately, so Phil decided to start it this morning, for the dream took place again last night.

"Are you drawing me, by any chance?" Dan asked nosily.

"Oh no, it's just a sketch." Phil said. He studied his drawing and began to realize how much it looked like Dan. Phil laughed to himself and continued to draw the features on the dream-boy.

"What do you call him?" Dan asked.

"Uhm, Charlie, I'll call him Charlie." Phil quickly decided and laughed with Dan, admiring how Dan's eyes twinkled even in the old cafeteria lighting in his worn out school.

"Charlie, I like that. Now c'mon, lets get lunch." Dan said and grabbed Phil's hand.

"Actually, I'm not that hungry. I had a big breakfast this morning." Phil lied and Dan shrugged, skipping off to get lunch with Chris. Pj was back at the table still, so Phil sat next to him. Peej thought the school lunches were gross, so he usually packed a sandwich everyday. He was also the only one to know about Phil's eating disorder, so he understood why he didn't go with Dan and Chris.

"Still no eating, huh Phil?"

"No, not for a while." Phil sighed in response.

"Aw, how long has it been since you digested food?" Pj asked.

"Too long to count." Phil timidly answered and Pj sighed. He didn't like that his friend would do this to himself, especially someone so skinny already, but there was nothing to stop him.

Phil turned around and saw a sad looking Dan, holding his tray of gross salad with way too much dressing.

"You have an eating disorder?"

Okay, well, that was a weird ending. Sorry, I couldn't think of anything else so that's what you get :P

I should probably do my homework.....

So have a good day filled with llamas and lions, thanks for reading:)

Love always,
Mary