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Breathe Me ; Chapter Four

Dan stood there shocked.

Why would he have an eating disorder? He thought. Phil was just so beautiful. No, you can't think this way. You have a girlfriend. A sweet, perfect girlfriend. Pull it together, Phil is not beautiful, she is.

Dan couldn't help the small feelings he got when Phil was around. He felt attracted to Phil on some level, but he knew Phil would never feel the same, he just met him.

"B-but, why?" Dan asked him.

Phil was completely and utterly shocked, Dan shouldn't know about this, not even Chris did.

"Come on, you're having a bite from my salad." Dan demanded and Pj almost choked on his sandwich, he knew not to make Phil eat, it would make him hate it even more.

"Dan you don't get it, it's not that eas-"

"Eat some. Now." Dan commanded him and Phil stabbed some of the lettuce. He slowly put the fork to his mouth, a tear escaping his eye.

"I c-can't." he stuttered and threw fork to the plate, beginning to softly cry.

Dan comforted Phil by putting his arm around his shoulder and wiping his tears. He then looked directly into Phil's eyes.

Gosh, he's perfect. Dan thought to himself, completely forgetting about his girlfriend.

"Please, for me?" Dan begged and Phil nodded slowly, one last tear steaming down his face rapidly.

Phil brought the fork to his mouth again. It was a tiny piece of the lettuce and a teeny tomato. He put it in his mouth and slowly squished the tomato between his teeth and swallowing it and then crunching on the lettuce, swallowing that as well.

Phil's stomach twisted instantly and he couldn't deal with it. He hated letting any food digest in his body. He got up and sprinted to the bathroom, Dan right on his trail.

Phil ran into one of the stalls as Dan cleared the bathroom, not caring what guys were in there, and all of them listened to him. He ran into the stall with Phil heaving in the toilet.

"I'm so sorry Phil, I shouldn't have made you eat that. I just wanted you to know that you have a beautiful body and you can eat." Dan told him, a tear threatening to burn down his face.

"It's fine." Phil said and sat up against the wall of the stall.

"No, it's not. Come on, we have to go to the infirmary so they can call home and get you." Dan told him and helped Phil up.

"No, no thank you. I'm fine here." Phil replied immediately. If there was one thing Phil hated than going home after school, it was being picked up early from school and having to force with his parents even more.

"No, we're going." Dan said, a little louder and more commanding. He gently grabbed Phil's uper arm and took him to the school's nurse. The nurse's office was on the other side of the first floor, but the school was rather small, and so was the office. It had one wall that only had space for one of those eye tests, and another that had space for a bathroom that shouldn't be used by anyone that's claustrophobic.

"Hello, can I help you?" The nurse asked, but then she saw Phil, "Oh, Phil! Are you alright? Did the bullies hurt you again?" she questioned. The nurse, Caroline (That is what she insisted on Phil calling her, rather than by her last name, like everyone else called her by), was the only one in the school who wasn't homophobic.

"Yeah, I'm fine, I just threw up a bit at lunch, the food wasn't settling right, thats all." Phil lied and Dan scoffed.

"That's not what happened, tell her the truth Phil, or I will." Dan warned and Caroline looked very concerned.

"Okay, erm, I have an eating disorder."Phil told her very slowly and she gasped.

Phil got really scared at first when he felt a tight sensation around my body, but when he looked up, she was hugging him. It felt nice, he hadn't been hugged in a very long time.

"Oh Phil. Do you want to try and get better?" Caroline asked and he nodded slightly.

"Then maybe you can try eating a small bit, chew it very slowly and take time to swallow." She told Phil, handing him a small ham sandwich. The bell rang for the next period, so Caroline called their professors to lie and tell them that Phil passed out.

Phil nibbled slightly into the crust and closed his eyes tightly. Dan gave a sympathetic smile to him as he continued to eat the sandwich.

Phil was able to force-swallow a few bits. He smiled slightly while holding his stomach, trying not to vomit.

"Do you want to go home, Phil. I think you should, it's bad to throw up in school and still stay." Dan offered and Phil looked desperately at Caroline. She knew Phil's problems. She was like Phil's guidance counselor, for the one at school is stupid and homophobic.

"Dan, he doesn't have to if he doesn't want to. It's not like a stomach virus or sickness, so he'll be okay for the remaining three classes." Caroline told Dan and Phil mouthed the words 'thank you' to her, leaving her to nod slightly in response.

After roughly 5 minutes, Phil had chewed his way through almost half of the small sandwich. Dan felt proud and he hugged Phil tightly, thanking Caroline before bringing Phil to his class.

Dan's arm wrapped around Phil's waist, and he looked over at his face while Phil stared at the ground.

The feelings pierced through Dan, and they were too strong to avoid. He had to accept that no matter how much he would ever love his girlfriend, he would always love Phil almost just as much, perhaps a bit less.

Phil looked over at Dan and saw his eyes twinkle, and then look at the ground immediately, his cheeks turning light pink. Phil knew Dan was looking at him the whole time, but I guess Dan thought he wouldn't notice, even though he did.

"Listen, Dan," Phil said as they started to approach the classroom, "thank you so much, really. I love you." Phil said and Dan's eyes widened, "I-in a friendly w-way." Phil stuttered and Dan sighed with relief and somewhat sadness. Yeah, he definitely had feelings for Phil, very strong feelings.

"I love you too Phil, in a friendly way." Dan replied and kissed Phil's cheek before walking to his class. Phil took it as a friendly gesture, but Dan wanted it to be more. He already lied though, he didn't love Phil in a friendly way.

He was just in love with Phil.

Oops haven't updated in ages thanks if you're actually reading this ily. And sorry that it's so horribly short oops.

So now Dan loves Phil yay! But Phil has an eating disorder:'( so sad. It's a phanfiction, what do you expect...even though it's just about the dumbest, stereotypical phanfiction ever....

Well anyways, thanks for actually reading the whole thing. Please vote and comment.

Love always,
Mary