a/n:
writing this is my honor's biology class aka hell in a class
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Joshua's POV:
Turns out Olivia did end up getting the role of Emily. I'm not surprised in the slightest, she's one of the best actors I've ever met. Not to mention how much of a talented singer she is.
And when we started singing together, it was just magical. I could tell Olivia was trying not to let her smile slip through, but eventually, she did and it was so refreshing. It showed me that there is still a chance. Still, a chance that we could work past things and have it not be so awkward.
But all I can really think about is how I messed up. I really messed up this time. I mean I cheated on her. I cheated on my best friend, on the girl who was supposed to be my soulmate. When she started yelling at me, it really sunk in how much I hurt her. I mean it's clear she doesn't let it affect her anymore. I can tell she's stronger than she's ever been before. And then when she said we will just be 'co-workers', I lost it. Treating the girl I used to think I'd spend the rest of my life with like a 'co-worker' or just being 'professional' is not gonna work for me. I don't know how I can fix things, but I'm for sure going to try. I'm not saying we will fall back in love with each other, we both know that's probably not good for us. But I don't want us to be those co-stars who just act happy with each other on camera and then the second the cameras stop rolling, they go their separate ways.
And no, I haven't told Lily Olivia got the part. She was crushed when her manager called her saying she didn't get the job. If I'm honest, I do think Olivia deserves it more than her. I've just never met anyone as talented as Olivia. I love Lily, I do, I just also have to be honest and I think that Olivia is a perfect fit for this role.
I leave tomorrow to fly to Vancouver for filming. I asked the showrunner, Blake, if there are assigned seats or anything and he said that Liv and I will sit next to each other for "bonding purposes". Hate to break it to you mate, but I'm pretty sure I broke all chances of "bonding" about 5 years ago when I was a complete asshole.
I think it's fair to say this project is gonna push us to our limits.
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Olivia's POV:
So I got the role.
Don't get me wrong, I'm ecstatic to start acting again I mean it's my passion. I'm just not super excited about seeing who-know-who again...
Working every day with your ex-boyfriend? Specifically, the boy who you used to think was your soulmate and then ended up being a cheating asshole? Yeh, not for me thanks. Which is why I said we're gonna just be professionals. Nothing more, nothing less. Well, maybe something less if he keeps f**king up.
I'm interested to see what Lily thinks about this. I wonder if he told her about us. I know if my boyfriend told me he was going to be filming lovey-dovey scenes with his ex-girlfriend I'd be kinda concerned. However, she has nothing to worry about, cus I want nothing to do with her boyfriend. She can keep that lying asshole to herself.
Tomorrow I fly out to Vancouver where I'll be staying for the next couple of months. I'm actually super excited to be filming somewhere different. It'll be so nice to get away from everything for a bit. Well, not the Josh bit but the stress that comes with being a famous singer/songwriter.
Oh, and did I mention I have to kiss him on the first day of filming? Because apparently, we do. I don't get why we can't just I don't know get stunt double's to do them. Or maybe use photoshop? I'm just scared I'll kiss him and all these old feelings will come rushing back.
I checked my phone and saw that it's 11 pm. Shoot, I leave tomorrow at like 6 am for my flight.
I quickly got in bed and turned my lights off.
Guess it's time to get this sh*t show on the road.
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a/n:
sry it's short! like I said above, I'm writing this in class so yeah
cordially uncordial,
katie x
