a/n:
for those of u who didn't read the update before this, i mentioned in there that i don't think lily is gonna be trying to split them up. i want it to happen naturally like break-ups do in real life 💜
cordially uncordial,
katie x
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5 months later
olivia's pov:
"another late night on set?"
"you know i have to work hard, baby. that means staying a bit longer," josh sighed.
"don't you think you can come home at a normal time? just for tonight?"
"i want to liv but i can't."
"please," i whispered sadly.
"i'm sorry i-"
"it's fine. i uh i get it," i cut him off.
"babe i-" i cut him off by hanging up the phone.
every night lately he's been calling to say he's coming home late. i haven't fallen asleep with him or woken up with him in what feels like forever. i don't even remember the last time i kissed him. i know he's busy, but it still sucks.
i don't know if i can keep doing this.
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josh's pov:
i sigh when liv ends the phone call.
i know i've been working late on set for too long by now, but it's what i have to do. we've been talking about getting married, and that means having enough money. don't get me wrong, we are in no way struggling for money. we're both successful ators and singers. i just don't want liv to ever have to worry about money. i want us to be happy together, even if it means working a bit more.
with that said, i can see how much it's affecting liv. i miss her, and i know she misses me too. she doesn't have that glow she used to. i love her more than anything and that's why i'm doing this. it probably won't make sense to her yet, but it will soon enough.
"alright, josh! ready to go?" our director asked.
"coming!" i replied, walking onto set and starting my scenes for the night.
3 hours later and i was finally done and ready to go back to our apartment. everyone else finished filming for the day ages ago, but by helping out and doing more scenes i will have a bigger check which is what we need.
by the time i got back to our apartment it was 2 am. i put my bag down by door and opened our bedroom door to see olivia sleeping. i never sleep in the same bed as her normally since it's so late and i don't want to wake her, but i miss her too much.
so i changed and climbed into bed. as soon as i laid down liv shifted towards me, sighing.
"i thought you were alseep," i whispered, pulling her to me.
"i haven't been able to sleep without you here," she admitted, matching my tone.
"i'm sorry i keep coming home so late."
"i know."
"i just have to so we can get-"
"don't," she cut me off.
"don't what?"
"don't justify you're actions by saying it's just so we can get married. i don't care about getting engaged if it means i can't be with you all the time. i want you, not a ring."
"you don't want to get married?"
"i never said that."
"you implied it."
"all i'm saying is that i miss you, and wanting more money so you can buy a ring isn't a good enough excuse. in fact there's no excuse. we're together yet it feels like we've never been farther apart."
"oh come on liv," i snapped, raising my voice from a whisper and sitting up.
"no you come on! josh you've been so distant lately and it's killing me."
"it's killing you? don't you think i've struggled with this too? all you have to do is work a little bit then come home and relax!"
"no, josh! all i do is work my ass off, then come home and cry because you're not there with me."
"what do you mean i'm not here?! i'm here right now! i never left."
"but you haven't been! when's the last time we kissed?"
a month.
"it's been a month josh! how about the last time we fell alseep together?!"
i don't even know that one.
"so long i don't even remember. so you expect me to be ok with all of this?"
"i thought you'd be more supportive. i'm doing this for us, liv."
"i'm trying to protect our relationship here and you doing this is breaking us further and further apart."
"i'm sorry, ok? this won't last forever. but until then i need to keep doing this."
"need to or want to? you don't need to work until the morning every day. you don't need to stop kissing me cus we never see each other. you don't need to start sleeping on the sofa. you don't need to neglect me," she sighed, laying back down.
"let's wait until morning to finish this conversation," i said, laying down as well.
"i love you," i whispered.
"well you have a shit way of showing it," liv replied before falling asleep.
things need to change, because otherwise there'll be no relationship to protect.
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a/n:
what is there to say here lol
