a/n:
i highly recommend u re-read the last chapter since it's been over week since I updated (some of u r still messaging me asking where I've been and why I'm not updating as regularly. i think I said it before but in case I didn't: I'm focusing more on my rini au "I miss you, I'm sorry" at the moment). 🤍
cordially uncordial,
katie xx
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josh's pov:
i tossed and turned all night trying to work out how i'm going to fix things with liv.
i finally fell asleep at 5 am, only to be woken by my alarm reminding to be early to set. ugh the last thing i want to do this morning is leave liv again. you know what? fuck this. i'm calling in sick for the morning. how are we supposed to fix things if i'm not around anyways.
i picked up my phone and texted the director, telling him i wasn't coming this morning.
"mm josh?" i heard liv mumble.
"i'm right here babe"
she rolled over to look at me, shock written all over her face "you're here?"
"yeah," i smiled "i'm taking the morning off work if that's good for you."
"you are?" she asked, a small smile playing on her face.
"mhm. do you have to get to set?"
her smile slipped slightly at those words "um i don't work in the mornings."
"you don't?"
she shook her head.
"then what do you do?"
"sit at home, write some songs, and wait for you to come home," she admitted, moving close towards me.
"i'm sorry," i muttered.
"really?"
"yes, of course. why wouldn't i be?"
"i dunno. i just know that this has become you're routine and i don't want to get in the way. i know i can be kind of annoying."
"liv you couldn't be more wrong. you're the one thing that keeps me grounded. probably the best thing in my life. you're everything but annoying."
she sighed, and put her arms around my neck, resting her head on my chest.
"are you gonna stay home today?" she asked hopefully.
"i will for the morning. but i'm not sure about the afternoon."
"oh," she said, getting out of bed.
"i'm sorry but i have to," i explained, following her to the kitchen.
she turned her back to me and focused on making breakfast "you always have to josh. i'm used to it by now."
"i'm taking the morning off though."
"mhm."
"liv? please say something."
she chuckled dryly "there's not much to say, josh."
"you're not mad?"
she stayed silent, adding a tea bag to her mug.
"olivia. are you mad at me?"
more silence.
"liv?!"
she turned around glaring at me "of course i'm mad at you! you're completely neglecting me and our relationship! i feel like i'm fighting to keep our relationship afloat, and you couldn't give a shit!"
"that's not one hundred percent true," i said trying to stay calm "i do care about this relationship. i care about you more than anything."
"we need to stop lying to ourselves. we're so distant now it's like we're not even dating!"
i stayed silent, looking everywhere but in her eyes.
"maybe that's how it's supposed to be," she muttered.
"what?" i breathed.
"maybe we shouldn't date right now."
"is that really how you feel?"
i could practically feel my heart breaking.
"it is. i love you so much josh but we're clearly not fitting right now. this has been going on for too long now."
"wow," i scoffed, "so this is it then?"
"yeah," she sighed sadly.
i bit my lip hard to hold in my urge to break down. "goodbye olivia."
"goodbye josh. i'll always love you."
"sure."
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a/n:
y'all wanted this to happen...
