a/n:
i know in the last chapter i had liv say that the panick attack was her third that month, but after thinking things through again i want that detail to change. i think i'll have it that she had a lot when her and josh broke up, but josh was there for a couple before that lol
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olivia's pov:
the last time i had a panick attack was when josh and i broke up. i had like 10 back then. i guess lily's song is just a reminder of everything.
everyone started bombarding me with questions, and it's all just too much.
"guys guys, let's just let her be for now. she gets a headache after her attacks," josh said, saving me.
he turned me around, keeping my between his legs, and put down so i was sitting bridal style and could rest my head on his shoulder "go to sleep livvy," he whispered.
i yawned and pushed myself into his chest "i'm not that tired," i said, my eyes starting to close.
"uh huh, sleep baby," he replied, kissing the top of my head.
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joshua's pov:
"should we end the live?" julia asked.
"no, no she'd feel guilty if we did. let's just continue," i replied, brushing my fingers through liv's hair the way i know relaxes her. "she'll be confused when she wakes up, so when she does just be calm."
"ok, cool. so should we answer some questions?" matt suggested.
we all agreed and started scrolling through them again before picking one.
"ok, uh this one is for josh 'josh, why did you and lily break up?'"
well sh*t.
"um things just weren't meant to be between us. i was reminded that unfortunately she's not the girl i belong with. but there are no hard feelings, and it was mutual so," i answered. hopefully that will give enough information to techniqually answer the question hahaha.
"yeah i don't think you guys were going to be together forever," frankie cut in, making everyone burst out laughing.
"FRANKIE! you can't say that!" sofia said, out of breath from laughing so hard.
"what?! we were all thinking it," he defended.
"there are some things that're just best not to say," joe replied, smiling and shaking his head.
"let's just move onto the next question," larry said, still laughing slightly.
"ugh fine. ok um oliver asks 'what would you change about yourself if you could?'" frankie said, slightly annoyed.
"ooo that's a good one! um i think i'd mka myself less impulsive. sometimes i make decisions quickly and without much thought, which means they sometimes backfire on me," i admitted.
everyone else went around answering the question, all giving similar answers.
"hey," i heard olivia mutter.
"hey love. how are you feeling?"
she rubbed her eyes and sat up more "what happened?"
"you had a paic attack."
"oh. is that why my hurts?"
i nodded in response "did you sleep ok?"
"mhm. you're really warm," she replied, making me chuckle quietly.
"how about you-"
"oh olivia you're awake!" frankie interrupted.
"yeah. sorry i fell asleep guys," she said, trying but failing to stand up so she could move to where she was sitting before.
"no, no liv. relax."
she nodded her head and sat back down like how she was before.
"oh! liv people are asking if you could sing a song," dara said.
"she's recovering right now. i don't think that's a good idea," i cut in, putting my arms around olivia's waist and pulling her backwards slightly so her back is touching my chest.
"i'll be ok, don't worry."
"i just don't think you belting out a song will be good for your headache right now."
"i could sing a quieter song like '21st Century Girls'?"
"ok," i sighed.
"could you help me get to the piano?" she asked.
"of course, come on." i picked her up and placed her down on the piano bench.
sofia grabbed the phone and we all circled around the piano.
liv began to play the opening chords before stopping quickly "oh and this is '21st Century Girls' just to know" she stumbled with a small laugh.
"Long blonde hair, daddy's a millionaire
her beautiful voice filled the room.
Nobody knows her, but everybody wants to
That's what I see
Europe trips
Kissing the dream boy's lips
Successful with a smile
She's everything that I'll
Never be
i still don't understand how she can be so insecure when she's so perfect.
Twenty-first century girls
Are perfect
And I know it isn't real, it's all so stupid
But digital love it still feels real to me
She looks like an angel it's what they'll believe
Twenty-first century girls
Are flawless
And I say I didn't care, but if I am honest
It's hard not to feel like I'm never enough
Yeah, I want that twenty-first century love"
we all started clapping, making olivia blush like crazy.
"haha thanks guys," she said sweetly.
"my biggest flex is that i know you," joe said sweetly as we all sat down.
"my biggest flex is that i was the first person to hear drivers license," sofia said, fake flipping her hair.
"mine is i was the first to hear the music video!" larry countered.
"wait, you saw the music video first?!" frankie exclaimed, leaning forward towards larry.
"yep! i remember liv and i were in the super fancy sandwhich shop and she showed me it."
"oh yeah! that was the best day," liv said, snuggling closer to me.
"let's just agree that our biggest flex is that we know the girl who's DEBUT SINGLE, who she wrote HERSELF, became the number 1 song in the world," I announced.
"damn right!" dara agreed.
"hell yeh!" julia yelled.
"people be jealous of us!" dara declared.
"eh, she's alright" matt said making us burst out laughing.
"i've known her longest!" sofia said loudly.
"and i get to call her my girlfriend," i whispered, looking down at liv in my lap.
"i love you," she muttered.
"i love you more," i said.
"mmm not possible," she said, closing her eyes and starting to fall back asleep.
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a/n:
is this ok lol?
i tried to make this good but it's kinda hard right now for obvious reasons.
love u guys 💜
katie x
