a/n:
all of your comments yesterday were so sweet and encouraging so I just wanted to say thank you 🥰
with that said here is the update you've all been messaging me asking for 😂
cordially uncordial,
katie x
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olivia's pov:
*time skip: 1 month*
"i hope the producers let you wrote a song for the show" josh said, blowing the steam off his coffee.
"i'm not sure. i haven't written a song for a show or anything in a while..."
we're walking towards set after stopping at a coffee shop on the way.
"seriously?! liv you're the most talented songwriter i've ever met. hell you're the most talented singer i've ever met.
i looked down at the ground while we kept walking "you're just saying that," i muttered,
"i'm seriously, liv. i wouldn't lie to you. not anymore."
"that mean a lot to me josh. i really-"
"surprise!" i was cut off by lily, jumping out from behind sofia's trailer.
"lily!" josh exclaimed tossing his coffee into the nearest bin, picking her up, and spinning her around in the air.
"what're you doing here?!" he asked once he out her down.
"i wanted to come and surprise you! we haven't seen each other in ages!" lily replied, kissing him.
the last time i saw josh smile this big was when he asked me to be his girlfriend and i said yes "i missed you so much," he breathed out before kissing her.
i can't watch this. i turned around and ran the other way.
i expected josh to at least call my name, but no. nothing. why do i care so much about him caring if i'm gone? i don't like him. i haven't for the past 5 years and i never will again. he's perfectly happy with lily and i'm happy for him.
i hid in my trailer for the next hour until sofia came and found me.
"hey, you're needed on set," sofia informed me, knocking on my door.
"i'm coming. just give me a second," i replied.
"hey uh you ok? you don't sound happy about it."
i walked over from my desk and opened the trailer door "i'm fine. everything's great. never been better."
"liv? what's going on?"
"lily's here," i muttered, looking to the side so she couldn't see how upset i am.
"i'm so sorry, olivia," sofia replied, coming inside my trailer and hugging me.
"it's fine. i shouldn't be upset anyways. he's moved on, i just need to do the same."
"it's ok to not be fine. i'd be a wreck if i were you."
"i just need to keep smiling and act like eveything's ok."
"well you can out up that front when josh is around, but you don't have to around your friends."
"thank you sofs."
"of course," she smiled.
"well i better get to set before people start questioning things," i laughed softly.
"yeah that might be the best," sofia agreed.
i walked out the trailer and painted on my perfect fake smile.
. . .
joshua's pov:
i'm sitting in a director's chair with lily next to me while waiting for my scene, and all i can think about is how liv has been acting.
ever since lily's arrived something's been off with liv. all day she's plastered on that fake smile again. i don't know why or how. did i do something? no, no we got past this. something's off, i just cant put my finger on what it is.
she doesn't seem to want anything to do with me. it's like wherever i go, she runs the opposite direction. i thought we were past this.
and anytime i try and ask the cast why she's acting weird, they all start fumbling over their words and make up the most bullsh*t lies i've ever heard.
"hello? babe? did you hear me?" i heard lily say, pulling me out of my thoughts.
"oh uh yeah sorry i just zoned out for a sec."
"it's all good. i was just asking if you wanted to go out to dinner tonight?"
"oh actually the cast and i were gonna eat together tonight."
"aww come on! please! for me?" lily begged, giving puppydog eyes.
"you can join us?"
"ok, deal," she agreed with her adorable smile.
"thank you, i love you."
"i love you too," she replied leaning in to kiss me.
"um sorry to interrupt but um the cast and i are going to yellow fin. you're welcome to join if you want to," i heard liv say.
damn it.
"oh uh-"
"thanks via!" lily replied, purposely saying her name wrong. what is going on today?
"yeah, of course." lily walked past liv, deliberately pushing past her shoulder.
"hey can we talk for a sec?" i asked liv, stopping her from walking away.
she crossed her arms as a sort of armor "sure, go ahead."
"is something going on? you've been a little off today."
"i'm fine."
"liv, two of our rules are that we don't lie to each other and we don't hide our emotions from each other. so be honest with me, what's wrong?"
"just go be with lily, ok?" she said before starting to walk away.
"woah, woah, woah, what does lily have anything to do with this?" i asked, stepping in front of her to block her from walking away.
"it doesn't matter. now move out of my way."
"no. not until you tell me what's wrong."
"josh, i'm not telling you ok?! just drop it!"
"no! no, liv i won't drop it! just as we start to fix things between us, you shut yourself off. and i won't let that happen, not again. so f*cking talk to me!"
"i can't josh! i just...i just can't!"
"you f*cking can! there is obviously something weighing on your heart, and you'll feel much better if you tell me what's wrong."
"i'm sorry josh, but it's not my place."
"not your place?! what's the supposed to mean?! just tell me what's wrong!"
she looked everywhere but at me, before taking a deep breath and responding, "i still love you!! ok?!!! you happy now??!! i am so f*cking in love with you it scares me. and i hate it! i hate it so f*cking much because you've moved on and i should be able to as well! but i can't and i don't think i ever will and it's driving me insane!! so just leave me alone!"
i can't believe it. she still loves me?
. . .
a/n:
but why are fight scenes between josh and olivia so fun to write? 😂
