a/n:
y'all my respect for sabrina just went 📉
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joshua's pov:
"RED LIGHTS STOP SIGNS!"
"I STILL SEE YOUR FACE IN THE WHITE CARS, FRONT YARDS"
"CAN'T DRIVE PAST THE PLACE WE USED TO GO TO"
"CUS I STILL FUCKING LOVE YOU BABE"
liv and i were driving around belting out drivers license on repeat.
i know it's about me (we talked about and it's all good), but i don't care because it's an amazing song either way.
once liv and i got back in the car, we made some ground rules.
1. no lies - we agreed to be 1000% honest with each other.
2. no hiding out emotions - don't bottle up your emotions. if you're upset about something, be open with the other person about it. liv came up with this one and i think it's the most important one.
3. no more writing songs about each other - we definitely aren't going to stick to this one, but it still had to be said.
4. we put our friendship first - doesn't matter if we are arguing or develop feelings for each other, our friendship always comes first and we have to work to keep it strong and protected. this one resonates with me the most. i don't care what happens, i just can't lose olivia again.
oh and she's letting me call her 'liv' again which I'm over the moon about :)
"i do genuinely mean this, how're things with you and lily?" liv asks.
"i won't lie, since she didn't get the role things have been sort of off between us."
a look if guilt washed over liv's face "oh my gosh i'm so sorry! i had no idea! i can talk to the director and see if he can-" she rambled.
"hey hey hey! it's ok. you are perfect for this role. we've been together for almost five years now and it's starting to feel more like friends and less like lovers ya know?"
liv nodded her head in response.
"the spark just isn't there anymore. and now that i think about it, it hasn't been there for a while."
"what're you gonna do about it?"
"honestly, i'm not sure. do you think i should break up with her?"
"i can't make this decision for you, josh" liv sighed.
"i just don't want to waste her time."
"waste her time? or waste yours?"
"i don't know," i muttered.
"well if i were you, i'd make sure i was 100% sure before i went and broke up with someone."
the rest of the car ride was silent as we drove back to set so liv could get her car.
"promise me you won't break her heart?" liv as she climbed into her car.
"i promise."
"good. because otherwise i will kill you," she laughed.
"haha very funny" i said sarcastically.
liv closed her door and started the car "i'll see you tomorrow?"
"yep! unfortunately for you you're kind of stuck with me, josh."
"yeah well we've got 5 years to catch up on so that's ok with me."
she cracked a smile and drove away, leaving me alone in my thoughts.
i got back in my car and drove to my apartment, smiling like an idiot the whole way.
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olivia's pov:
i climbed into bed with a sigh. today has felt like it lasted for eternity.
i started off the day barely being able to look at josh, and now it's like we're best friends again.
dont get me wrong, i won't pretend like the last five years never happened. but i'm tired of holding a grudge and shutting myself off from him.
i just need to learn to stop shutting myself off from other people too. i'm getting there, it's just hard. so, so, hard.
just as i was about to fall asleep, my phone started ringing. damn when will i ever learn to put it on silent
i rolled over and picked up the phone half asleep "hello?"
"hey girl!" i heard madi say.
"madi is everything ok? i was just about to go to sleep"
"well talking to your best friend is more important than sleeping," she said making me laugh.
"cant argue with you there. but seriously what's up?"
"i just wanted to check in on how you're doing? dara called and told me how you and josh might be friends again. is that true?"
sh*t.
"um yeah..."
"liv i swear to god if he hurts you-"
"he won't, i promise. we talked about everything, and i do genuinely think everything is going to work out."
"ugh fine. but i never did get to hit him when he cheated on you, so if he does hurt you just make sure i'm close so i can come hit him."
"ahaha fine. but that's not gonna happen"
"what?! no it will happen. i take karate missy. i could knock him out easily just you-"
"madi!! i mean you won't have to hit him because i won't be hurt by him again."
"ooohh i knew that," she said sheepishly.
i yawned "uh huh sure you did."
"alright babes get your beauty sleep," she ordered.
"you got it! night madi."
"night liv."
that night i fell asleep with a smile on face.
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a/n:
sorry i've been on here so much, y'all are probably sick of me by now
buuuut i love writing on this thing sooo
cordially uncordial,
katie x
