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OLIVIA'S NEW INSTAGRAM STORY!! YES WE LOVE AN UNBOTHERED QUEEN 👏👏👏👏
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Olivia's POV:
"what about lily?" i asked.
"what about her?"
"i mean i don't think she likes me. and if she doesn't like me than you don't like me."
"um i never talk about you with her, so she doesn't have an opinion on you."
"ok."
"so um what happens now?"
"what do you mean?" i asked, lifting my head up and looking at him.
"like, what happens now? are we good?"
are we? i'm just so sick of all the drama.
i gave him a small smile "yeah, we are."
my phone started ringing, cutting the silence.
i got up and picked my phone off my vanity. i looked at the caller id and saw it was dara. why is she calling me?
"hey what's up?" i asked.
"' what's up'?! girl where are you!"
"oh shoot! i'm so sorry i completely forgot."
"it's all good, don't worry. soooo how are things with you and josh?"
i looked behind me at josh who wore a small smile, looking back at me.
i returned the smile "it's good. i think things will be ok."
"i'm happy to hear that. are you ok with us heading back?"
"yeah, for sure. i'll be good"
"alright, i love you babes!"
"love you more!"
I hung up and put my phone in my bag.
"do you wanna do something?" josh asked, standing up.
i gave him a curious look "what're you suggesting?"
"how about-"
"if you say disneyland i might go back on that agreement of us being good" i cut him off, making him burst out laughing.
"haha no, i was gonna suggest we go to in-n-out."
"yeah, sure."
"awesome, my car or yours?" josh asked, leading me outside his trailer and towards the car park (a/n: for americans, car park means parking lot lol).
"um yours?"
"ok, cool."
"so uh how've you been? we haven't really talked for 5 years," i said, once we sat in his car.
"i've been ok. it's been really hard though."
wait what?!
i looked away from the window and towards him "why has it been hard?"
"well, i cheated on you. so these last five years i've felt incredibly guilty. everytime i saw you on tv with that fake smile you've perfected over the past few years, it broke me."
"what do you mean? i was perfectly happy."
"liv, we may have broken up but i still know you better than anyone. you may have fooled everyone else, but i knew it wasn't genuine."
"ugh i thought i did so well!" i complained, sliding down in my seat laughing.
"nope! you're the best actress i've ever met but not the best at convincing me you're happy!" he replied, laughing with me.
"haha very funny," i said sarcastically.
"mhm it's very funny. anyways how have you been?"
i turned back towards the window "honestly? not so great. i won't lie, when we first ended things it kind of killed me inside. but i've gotten through it. i'm stronger than i was before and i think that's why i'm ok with us being friends again."
"that makes sense. we don't like each other anymore so we can be friends again without it all getting messy."
ouch. 'we don't like each other anymore'
i mean i knew he had no feelings for me and that we're through, but to hear him say it out loud? that stings.
"yeah...we don't like each other anymore..."
"yeah..."
an awkward silence filled the car as we drove to in-n-out. josh kept trying to catch my eye, and everytime he did i'd look the other way.
when we got to in-n-out we walked inside in silence. i went and ordered our food while josh went and found us a booth.
i got our food and joined josh at a round booth towards the front of the restaurant.
josh looked down at his hands with a sad look on his face "i'm sorry for what i said in the car."
"what do you mean?"
"the thing i said about us not liking each other anymore? i'm sorry. i know that's insensitive."
"oh um it's ok. i get it it's fine."
"liv, don't do that."
i looked up at him "do what? what am i doing?"
"you're starting to close yourself up again."
"no i'm not."
"please don't hide your emotions. not from me."
i took a deep breath before replying "sorry, it's just habit i guess."
"it's ok. do you wanna tell me how you feel?"
"it's just hard. it's really really hard. i want to be friends with you, but everytime i see you it just reminds me of the pain you put me through."
"i promise, i will never ever put you through that sort of pain ever again. i was a big f*cking idiot," he replied, emphasizing the word 'promise'.
"yeah, you were," i responded with a small laugh.
"do you think you can forgive me?"
"i can forgive you. but i don't think i can forget."
"i can live with that."
i couldn't help but laugh slightly "good"
at least we know where we both stand.
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a/n:
sorry this is so short! i just wanted to get something out today :)
