When Everything Fails (De Chavez #2)

CHAPTER ELEVEN

CHAPTER ELEVEN

MY HEART was like a jackhammer ravaging my ribcage I had to stop walking to draw a breath. Due to the loud and aggressive thuds of my heart, my head pulsed painfully I fumbled for anything that could support me without stumbling to the ground. With the little steps that I made when I emerged from Kei's room, I reached the grandiose double doors a couple of minutes which I could have reached a minute after I left his room.

Damn it, my chest constricted and the reaction unfurled something I could not determine. Fuck idiot for being naïve.

I leaned my body against the huge double doors. As I let out an exhausted breath, I looked at the outside vicinity that was consumed with darkness. The moon hung above, handing the vicinity a faint light, preventing the coursing of blindness to take over. As the wind whistled soothingly, the trees meters away from the mansion rustled intricately. A cold and enticing night for my chaotic inside, a ribbon of confusion twirled out from the unfurled box in my head, pain from the heart wreaking-havoc my chest.

Ano 'tong nararamdaman ko? Aside from anger that I tried to gather because fucking hell, that was what I should be feeling, and yet it had been overshadowed by the confusion and the unfamiliar warmth that wrapped around my chest. Galit ako sa kaniya— dapat akong magalit sa kaniya. Pero bakit mas galit pa ako sa sarili ko dahil hindi ko magawang magalit sa kaniya nang tudo? Bakit ganito na ang nararamdaman ko?

Claps of the flip-flops tapping the tiled floor made me blanch. Don't tell me he really went after me? 'Di ba ay sinabi ko naman na sa kaniya na hindi na niya dapat ako sundan pa? I can wait for our driver here. Hindi na dapat siya bumaba pa at mas lalo lang akong matataranta.

Am I being sentimental? Was it because he stole my first kiss which I reserved for a long time to give to someone I actually love. Love. How can I hope for that if even I don't believe? Kung ano-ano nalang ang iniisip ko para makalusot sa kung ano mang nararamdaman ko.

"Hindi ba ay—" I choked by the words I supposed to sputter when I saw Lola Mary walking toward me. Her smile was wide and warm.

"Uuwi ka na, hija?" She asked.

I cleared my throat. Muntik ko nang mataasan ng boses si Lola Mary. Damn!

Before answering her question, I smiled by my eyes slid away from her and it flitted to the room of Kei upstairs. My chest constricted as the image from awhile flashed on my mind. Confusion morphed into embarrassment as heat wrapped my face.

"O-Opo, Lola..." I stuttered. My jaw ticked as I tried to gather all the composure strewed in the ground into tiny bits, "Tapos na po kasi practice namin ni K-Kei..."

"I see," she nodded and glimpsed upstairs, "Kumain ka muna rito ng haponan. Hindi ka ba niyaya ni Kei na kumain?"

I frantically shook my head; declining her idea of me eating here. The longer I stay, I longer I panic about the reaction of my body toward the kiss. Fucking kiss. How sweet— damn it. I haven't been kissed before him but I could say that he is... sweet... hypnotic... and somehow confusing. I hated how it stirred emotion within me. How can it instill fear of the unknown in my guts?

"Are you okay, hija? Bakit ka namumula? May sakit ka ba?" Concern seeped through her throat as she pointed to the reddening of my cheeks. With a silent prayer, I wished the ground to open and swallow me whole.

I shook my head. Panic was seeping through my system. Anong nangyayari kasi sa akin?

"A-ayos lang po ako, Lola. I... I just need to get rest na po kasi medyo maraming ginagawa sa school ngayon." I was a half-lie though. Truly, I needed rest but it wasn't because the schoolwork exhausted me but rather the kiss I shared with Kei. It drained my energy. Fuck it.