soundtrack of our love

amnesia.

i wish that I could wake up with amnesia

to forget about the stupid little things.

like the way it felt to fall asleep next to you

and the memories I never can escape.

•amnesia by 5sos•

i woke up outside. literally asleep on the ground. i remember everything that happened. I realized I needed to tell someone. I grabbed my phone and dialed autumns number, she still didn't answer. I thought of the only other person to call. so I dialed my older brothers number. after three rings he answered. "jasey? are you okay?" "yes, well no. im not. something bad happened, like really bad. and I'm not sure what to do zach." "jasey, what the hell happened?" I took a deep breath and began to explain to zach, my 25 year old brother, everything that happened last night, but I started with sam.

"okay you know sam? well he's back in california, he has been for three months, well 6 months ago we got engaged. last night I decided to go out for a drink, and I had about 6 or 7 shots when this guy asked if he could buy me a drink. being the stupid 19 year old I am, I said yeah, now remember I was drunk. well, I think he drugged me because he took me to his apartment, and uhm.. he sexually assaulted me. and you know I'd never cheat on someone, I swear I tried to push him off, he wouldn't stop."

"jasey go to the fucking cops. what's his name, I'll go." "he said his name was aaron and he attends Ashburn county's college and is majoring in english." "jasey, tell the cops, but more importantly tell sam." "I will."

after I filed a police report, the cios said they'd go through the programs to find suspects, bring them in and I'd have to tell them which one is him. I decided to tell sam. "jase are you fucking alright? that sorry piece of shit will pay. I'm gonna kill him." "i-im okay. I think." just please come home soon baby." "im getting on a flight next week. I love you, please dont go anywhere without Autumn." "im sorry, I won't. I love you more."

the police told me there was no in the system at the school named aaron. why couldn't he have left me alone. im starting to feel a way I haven't felt in months, since before sam. and there's only one way to stop this. I ran home and grabbed a razor out from the new bag in the closet.

i knew I'd regret this, but what else is there for me to do?

a/n: oh no (where did austin jones go) jk. sam is life tbh.